Call me weak, call me a failure all you want, but I know i tried
My willingness to live frayed at the middle like a rope bridge crossing a deep chasm
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I have seen days when the stars didn't shine so bright
I have also seen the clouds disappear at night
I have watched empires crumble
I have seen the strong tumble
I have also witnessed the weak thrive
I have watch my days bleed words I left unsaid
While I drown my self in its pool just to feel safe
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But non of these gave me the happiness I needed
None of these gave my mind the peace it pleaded....
Now, i lay in this pool of my own blood
As the kitchen knife rest in my hand
The walls closing in,
the heavy silence in this room choking me.
I bask in my last fleeting moment
As I feel my lungs run out of air,
I bask in how much peace I have attained with just one Sacrifice- Life
I have never really felt more alive than I do now
My mind has never really been at peace than it is now
I wish there was another way to get this peace I seek
But I won't be here for long to find a different way
So Lay me to rest when you see this note,
do not weep at my grave
For I do not want a grave,
neither do I want flowers, for they eventually die
I want to be burnt and my ashes thrown into the sea
Where I would spread my wings to places beyond reach
For out of the blueness of the sea will my mind find its peace
