Drarry OneShots

Come back to me

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TW: PANIC ATTACK

Harry hadn't had a panic attack in weeks, thanks to his boyfriend, who somehow always knew when Harry needed him, as well as knowing exactly how to ground him and bring him back from the brink of panic. But Draco wasn't here this time, and Harry was scared. Draco was in a meeting with the headmistress about his future career, a mandatory meeting for all eighth-year students. Harry had met with her earlier in the day and found he really didn't know what he wanted to do. He had planned on being an Auror but fighting a war as a seventeen-year-old made him want to stay far away from dark wizards and battles for the rest of his life. He had no clue what he wanted to do once he left Hogwarts and that terrified him. Draco already had everything sorted, he was set to enter St. Mungo's healer academy after graduating to begin his education in magical medicine. Seeing everyone else with their lives planned out and moving forward made Harry feel incompetent and stupid like he was destined to be a house husband for the rest of his life.

He didn't need to work per se, Draco had an inheritance of over 300 million galleons just sitting in vaults, and Harry had both the inheritance from his parents and the Black family fortune to his name. He could sit around doing nothing for the rest of his life and never have to worry about money.

He wasn't like that though, he would get stir-crazy, restless, he couldn't do anything for the rest of his life, he just wasn't like that.

Harry hadn't even noticed his chest tightening or his head spinning, or his breath speeding up. He was jarred out of his head when his legs gave out on him and he collapsed on the floor of his dorm. Even though he was shocked out of his previous train of thought, the intrusive, panicked thoughts still ran through his head.

What if Draco broke up with him? He wouldn't want a boyfriend who lived off his money.

What if Draco thought he was worthless?

What if Draco left him?

What is the whole Wizarding world thought he was worthless and ridiculed him for it?

What if Ron and Hermione didn't want a lazy friend?

What if Draco left him?

He didn't know what he would do without Draco.

Draco was like his sun. He was at the center of Harry's orbit, lighting up his world, making him happy and loved, his world was dark without Draco, he had been there before and he didn't want to go back.

He needed Draco, he needed him badly, but he didn't have the strength to summon a Patronus right now, he wasn't sure he could even think happy enough thoughts to summon one. Draco would be back soon, right? How long could this meeting take?

A long time apparently.

Harry had no real concept of time, he never did when he was having a panic attack. He felt like he had been sitting on his dorm floors for years. He was dizzy and cold, and he felt like he was going to throw up. The realization he should probably make his way to the bathroom dashed through his head, but he didn't have the capacity to do that at the moment. He could feel his shirt sticking to him from the cold sweat all over his body. It made the itching feeling of his skin so much worse, and it made him want to rip his skin off. So he tried to. It was a regular occurrence during his attacks. He would scratch his skin, usually his arms and thighs, so hard they would bleed, in an effort to ease the discomfort in his own skin that he felt. Usually, Draco was there to gently hold his hands and speak soft words until the itching stopped and his mind calmed, but he was alone this time.