I wake up everyday just to wallow
In my life's regret
I try to move on to shake them
But im unable to forget
I used to call them lessons
Things I had to learn
But now I left guess because
This pains what I have earned
I'm just beginning to see
Me for me
All the wrongs I've done
But I just can't leave her be
There were so many times where
I could have just Gave In
But my pride was too big
when it came to the days in
Things that didn't even bother me
Became a fight
And It didnt even matter if I was wrong
Or if I was right
I was foolish and selfish
In so many ways
I wouldn't back down id stand my ground
I was unable to faze
When words had no effect
Physicality suited me fine
And after the first time
I knew not where to draw the line
You were no longer my equal
Not even a peer
I aimed to control you
And I did it using fear
Reasoning and excuses
Boy I gave them all
These things didn't matter to me
Because I just couldn't feel at all
Our last moments together
Were explosive a full blown catastrophe
I drew my fist cause I was pissed
I t ended in tragedy
Now I think about you form
Morning until night
And I pray to God for the chance
For me to make it right
It's taken all of this
Just to realize I love you
To know that I'm willing to make any sacrifice
And put no one else above you
Though I doubt you'll ever be willing
To again allow me into your heart
I'll spend every waking hour
Trying to show you where to start
Because I didn't just lose
The love of my life
Nor just the one
I assumed I'd call wife
I lost my best friend
Along the way
And the things id done
Are beyond repay
I know my fate
And thats what I fear
But know that my words
Are oh so sincere
I know what I've done
But I also know what I can do
And one way or another
I have to make this up to you
Because life without you
Just ain't worth living
So if its to death I must go
You drive cause I need driven
Just remember no speeding
It's not far we'll get there fast
Matter of fact I'm already here
Because I'm Living in the Past!
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Life's Lonely Road (A Poetry Collection)
PoetryLIFES LONELY ROAD A Poetry Collection Each poem in "Life's Lonely Road" has it's own unique theme based on one of life's many lessons that we all come to learn...
