Racing and running
And proving to myself
That I did not need you
Or anyone elseAnd keeping check
On myself always
So I didn't drift and get hurt
Or float sidewaysKnowing I am something
So it meant for me
That I had to stand separate
In order to be freeAnd I counted the days like
They needed to be quicker
Like: hurry, my life is waiting
Felt like I was only draggingI did not think time counted
Really and sincerely
Until I stood in a square
Drawn ragged and smearyI have watched the hand flash,
Counting with the timer in my head
Fifteen, thirteen, twelve
Soon enough, I can cross the street insteadAnd there was a quiet panic
Like I thought I'd miss what came after zero
Even when I believed I was letting go
My knuckles got whiterSo while I was counting down my days to cross,
I never considered being okay
With admitting how interesting
Not being alone could beAnd by that I mean
When the red 0 follows a one
And the little white man appears
And if you were walking along side me
And instead of counting the daysPerhaps I could just count on you
And maybe that wouldn't be so bad
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Poems That Came From a Beanstalk
PoetryPoems that came from... well, a beanstalk (updates are random)