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Sakusa's Letter

Dear Atsu,

I know how much is this going to affect you. And I know how stubborn you might be but please keep going on even though you might not see me again. Because I know for sure when I die I'm not going to heaven I don't deserve it. But if I do hopefully I get to see you again I'm gonna miss everything about you. But please take care of yourself don't stay up too late don't hurt yourself anything like that. I don't wanna pass away but it's going to happen some point in life and you had to understand that. I've been thinking of our future but I know for sure I will never see it. I know I'm not worth your time I'm not worth your love and affection. But when I die I hope you found someone better than me, boy or girl just make sure they treat you right. I wish it would be me but I know I'm not gonna make it out alive. I didn't have a long life but I got a lot of blessings from you and you showed me love that no one could ever showed me. It's sucks it all gonna end sooner or later. I'm sorry if you start crying while reading this I didn't mean to hurt you I just wanted to tell you how much I love and appreciate you.

I'm gonna miss the way you kissed me.

I'm gonna miss the way you hold me when we fall asleep together.

I'm gonna miss all the funny videos and photos that we took.

I'm gonna miss you throwing a tantrum when you don't get what you want.

I'm gonna miss the way you touch me.

I'm gonna miss your adorable laugh.

I'm gonna miss the way you would get mad after you lose a video game with me.

I'm gonna miss when you start crying in a horror movie.

I'm gonna miss our dates.

I'm gonna miss when you came to Tokyo just to say I love you, even though you could've sent a text or called me you risked all that just for me

I still can't believe I was actually dating you. Out of all the people you could've picked you picked me. And I'm thanking you for that because for fucks sake you didn't deserve me. You deserve someone better and that's what I hope you get from your next lover. I'll be watching over you I hope we meet again. You might be the stupidest person I've ever met but at least I showed you happiness and you showed me happiness. We talked about all the problems even though yours was mainly about losing a volleyball game or when. Osamu and Suna Would bully you for the fun of it. It was fun to see you get mad because you know you would lose the fight. Or when they embarrassed you in front of me, seeing your cheeks light up was the most cutest thing I've ever seen in my life. Make sure you do the same to your new lover. We dated for 3 years I know how dumb you can be , Before I go I will watch you sleep until I take my last breath. I'll see you one day, Atsu

You known him for 6 years love him for the rest of your life.

Love Sakusa ❤︎