Doll - Bucky x Reader fanfic

Chapter 15 - Shattered

Chapter 15 

Last night, Bucky decided to sleep in his own room, since Nat pissed him off. You were pissed off too. You thought that you and Natasha had made up and forgave each other, but apparently not. You decided to get up to rinse off and go to brunch with Wanda, but first, you went to check on Bucky.

"Hey Buck". You walk into his room. "Hey Doll" he replies. "Are you doing ok? You seemed pretty upset last night". "I'm fine" he says, obviously not fine. He pulls you into a kiss and starts unbuttoning your shirt. "Bucky I can't," you say, pulling away from the kiss and fixing your shirt. "I have plans with Wanda soon". "Come on Doll. Just real quick" he whines. "I'll be back soon Barnes" you say and walk out the room.

Wanda and you had decided to go to a small cafe on the outskirts of Manhattan. You go to the counter and get a bagel and a vanilla latte. "So, what happened last night?" Wanda asks. "It's not really my business to tell. I'm just mad that me and Natasha finally made up and then she goes and pulls this crap. It's getting old" you reply. "I can talk to her if you want. I don't want to pick sides in this, because I love you both, but I can get her side of the story and maybe help you guys out" Wanda says and holds your hand from across the table. "I can't ask you to do that Wanda. I don't want you to be in the middle of our drama" you say. "It's nothing Y/N. Like I said, I won't pick sides, and I just want my two best friends to get along again" she says. "Fine, but if I tell you to stay out of it, you have to promise to back off". "Deal" she replies.

You and Wanda enjoy the rest of your Brunch and head back to the tower. As the elevator opens on the common area level, you hear muffled yells coming from the kitchen, then glass shattering. Wanda and you look at eachother and run towards the commotion. You burst through the door just as Bucky throws a mug across the room. Wanda stops in mid air and lowers onto the counter. "What the hell is going on in here!" you yell. "Your asshole boyfriend keeps tryna start shit with me for no reason!" Nat yells and throws a knife towards him, that he luckily dodges. "Don't fucking lie Natasha. You started this last night while we were just tryna have a nice game night" Bucky screams back. You look around stunned. All the cupboards are open, with broken plates and cups all across the kitchen and knives in every wall. "Are you fucking serious guys?! This has gone way too fucking far, and you already know Tony is gonna take all this damage out of your paychecks" you yell at the both of them and storm out of the room.

You collapse on your bed and begin crying. You were tired of all this drama. You just wanted to be happy with your best friend and Bucky. "Y/N. Are you ok?" Wanda says, knocking on your door frame. "I just want to be alone for a little bit" you sniffle. "Ok" Wanda replies and gently closes your door. You toss and turn for a little bit, blowing your nose in between, but you can't fall asleep. Then you remember the Xanax under your sink and decide to take that.

- 6 pm -

You wake to a knock on your door. Before you can answer, Bucky comes in. "Doll?" he says. "Ugh. Bucky leave me alone" you say and roll over to face the wall. "Doll I'm sorry ok. But she started it" he exclaims. "Bucky you hear yourself right? You sound like a fucking child. I don't give a fuck who started it. I walked in on you throwing cups at her. Even if she did started it, did you really have to fucking do that?" you rant. "I know. I know Doll, and I'm sorry. It's just.. sometimes I feel like I can't control my anger". He tries to pull you in for a hug, but you push off him. "You can't keep using that as an excuse. You've had countless amounts of shock therapy and time off and counseling and a whole lot of other shit. It's YOUR choice to express your anger like that. Stop blaming it on your goddamn past!" you say. You leave him speechless and see him try to grasp for words. "Look Bucky, I know you love me, and I love you too, but I think we should take a break, until I can sort all this out with Natasha" you say. "No Y/N please I". You cut him off. "Please Bucky. I can't handle all the stress of my nightmares, and Natasha, and You, and training all at once. I- I just need to be alone for a little bit". You try to bite back tears, but Bucky notices. "I understand. I'll leave you alone until your ready" he says, and leaves your room.

The thoughts of everything flooded your mind, so you decided to take a cold shower and get back in bed. Again you were restless so you grab your laptop and put on Family Guy to hopefully lift your spirits. Eventually, you drift off with dried tears stuck to the corners of your eyes.