一緒 (together) - ethan nestor x reader

twenty nine ☆ - consent

things started turning hotter. your hands gently trailing up his shirt, his fingers brushing up against your chest.

but, as he gently climbed on top on you and started pulling up your shirt, you felt an odd knot in your stomach.

you froze.

ethan noticed your hesitation. he stopped pulling on your shirt and pulled his lips away from yours, giving you a little breathing room. "everything okay, (y/n)?" he asked, concerned.

you shrugged. "not really?"

he got off you immediately, instead laying on the bed beside you. you pulled our shirt back down so it'd cover your stomach.

"(y/n), if somethings up, please tell me, okay?" he said, obvious love and care in his voice. he still looked at you concerned and curious.

"listen, i guess it's just... i don't feel ready yet?" you said, sitting up and leaning against the bed frame. "i mean, when we had sex that first time, i- i felt fine, and i don't regret it, but now that we're kind of past our 'honeymoon' phase, i just.. don't want to? not right now." you chuckled a little, looking up at the celing.

ethans celing had little glow in the dark stars on it, mostly just scattered, but there was a small set forming "unus". it was cute as hell.

"i don't know. it probably sounds stupid, but just, take my word for it, okay?" you said, softly gripping his hand.

ethan nodded slowly, leaning in and kissing your cheek softly. "of course. is there anything else you want to do, or do you just want to go to bed? it's pretty late now."

"cuddle you? a ton?" you asked. he smiled.

"of course. c''mere, pumpkin." you laid back down in bed. he laid on his back while you had one of your legs over him and your arms around his stomach, your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

his right hand slowly ran his hands through your hair, while his left hand traced stars and hearts into your thigh.

"you want me to sing you something?" he mumbled. you nodded into his chest.

he cleared his throat, and sleepily started singing.

"long ago, i had loved to sing
but now, when i do, i don't feel a thing
where, oh where, did my happiness go?
i don't know, i don't know, don't know anymore
that face i still remember, smiling through any weather
just thinking of it makes me feel much better
all my sounds are fading out, and i can see
the end is getting closer now..."

the song, while you hadn't heard it before, was a sort of melancholy, soft tune that would put you right to sleep. that, paired with the sound of ethans heartbeat, sent you steadily into a deep sleep.