Heal the broken

Nine

I ran back to my apartment after what hawk said. It stung a little but he was right. We weren't together we hadn't even been on a date. It hurt right now but despite what hawk might think... I hadn't opened up to him yet. I wasn't attached and it was for this very reason. Sure I liked him and I wanted to be able to open up to him... but the thing is I don't bring my walls down because I'm the problem. Because I'm scared or because I'm a pussy. It's because people fucking leave. They walk out, or find someone better. And when that happens you know damn well it hurts more when someone walks out who knows every little thing about you it's like they they just rip out your heart and take the piece you had given them with them. And that's what hurts and that feeling was all too familiar to me. So from now on I didn't allow it to happen and it has been working well. Hawk walked out and I didn't want him to be a person I couldn't trust but it's fine.

I would still be his friend and I would not be rude to him. But I don't think I will ever be able to trust him but that's okay.

I hear a knock on my door and I see miguel.

"Hey" I say smiling at him

"Oh hey? Are you okay" he asks surprised to see me smiling

"Yeah I'm good what's up" I ask wondering what he was doing here

"Oh I followed you home I-I mean not in a weird way I just wanted to make sure you were okay and I didn't exactly know which apartment was yours" he laughs.

"Oh okay yeah I'm fine" I say happy that he wanted to check on me. I've been really focused with hawk I didn't realize what I good friend I had in-front of me. Hawk might of bailed but I don't know if miguel would.

"Can I come in" he asks curious to see my house

"Oh sure" I say moving aside so he could walk in

"It's not much we aren't the richest people" I laugh trying to make my awkwardness go away.

"No it's nice" he says feeling bad I was clearly embarrassed about my house

"So when is your mom coming home?" He asks me

"I don't know she keeps getting caught up with more and more work so not soon" I lie

"Oh okay. Well you could always stay at my house or at least eat dinner with us" he says and I appreciated his concern but it was fine

"Thanks" I smile at him

"So should we head to valley fest?" He asks pulling out these cool black gi's that I guess johnny had given him for me

"Oh my god those are sick" I yell and he just laughs

"Here Lets change into them" he says giving me mine as head into my bedroom to change

"How do I look" I say laughing as I do cliche model poses

"Amazing but not as good as me" he says doing poses as well and we both just laugh

"Okay I should go I told johnny I would go with him" he says making me a little sad cause I enjoyed the company and he could tell

"Hey I can just ask him to pick us up here he could take you too" he says

"Really? Okay" I say excited

About thirty minutes later johnnys back with yellow strip car pulled up infront if my apartment complex. I could tell he was kind of sketched out that that's where I lived

"Quinn who do you live with here" he asks me

"Oh my mom shes out in a work vacation thing though" I say eyeing him through the mirror and he got what I was trying to say so he dropped it. At least until we were alone cause he clearly knew that wasnt true.