KWJ ONESHOTS VOLUME II.

Kita

    You couldn't help but feel like a terrible person around Kita. You spent the last two months away from him, needing to work on yourself but you couldn't help but repeat the words you told him in order to get those two months to yourself.

_____ 2 Months Ago ____

"Kita I need to be alone"

"Why do you need to be alone (Y/N?). Can we please talk about this?"

    Kita grabs your wrist, preventing you from walking away from him. He wanted to help fix your issues but you didn't want him to do that as he was the one to always do it. He did it to the point where you were so dependant on him and you wanted to stop that.

"Shinsuke I don't want to..."

"Why....Is it because you're afraid to hurt me? Are you afraid I'll hate you? Are you afraid to better our relationship?"

    Kita had a point, if you wanted things get better, you had to communicate with him about what you wanted. But the question was: Did Kita still make you happy?

     You were weak and still felt his warm touch taking hold of your wrist. Kita slowly turns you around and brings you closer to him, gently using his other hand to push you on his chest for a hug. It was warm and comforting. This was what you wanted...But you knew you didn't need this right now. You have to figure out your priorities and whether or not Kita was one of them.

"I-I'm afraid of hurting you" your voice began to crack.

     Kita could feel you shivering, practically trembling in fear. He knew that whatever would come out of your mouth was going to take a lot of courage. He was prepared for the worst and understood that sometimes things need to fall apart before they could be whole again.

     Kita gently pets your hair, comforting you as he was trying to get you to calm down so you can speak.

"Shhh, (Y/N) don't force yourself. Breathe. Take your time in explaining." Kita cooed.

    You took a few moments to breathe. You were hyperventilating and sometimes forgot how to breathe under stress. You gave one big sigh and decided to let it all out, your feelings and your tears.

"I'm upset at myself. I'm upset for feeling this way. I'm upset for not understanding why I'm causing you such unnecessary pain" you began, hot tears streaming down your face.

"I'm struggling with the notion of asking myself if I still love you as much as you love me. My feelings have been falling off and I feel so distant...I understand that long term relationships will go down and that honeymoon phase will never stick around but sometimes Kita, it hurts to not get excited over you anymore."

"You're falling out of love with me?" Kita asks, still embracing you as you cried into his chest.

"I suppose so...I'm sorry Shinsuke" you apologized, being in shock that you finally said what was bothering you for the past month, out into the open.

     You could hear his heart rapidly beating. You broke his heart and now he was the one who couldn't breathe.

As you're about to pull away, Kita pulls you in again.

"Can we please just stay like this for a moment."

   Kita didn't want you to see him crying and you didn't want to see that either.

     Kita still held you tight. He knew that these words would haunt him forever, questioning whether or not he did a good job in keeping you happy but he wasn't selfish. He wanted you to better yourself without him.