Harry Potter Oneshots

Drivers License (Draco Malfoy x Reader)

description: opposites attract, they always do. but when complete polar opposites are together, is there any possibility to stay together? (this is totally inspired by drivers license by oliva rodigo, please check it out it is an incredible song!!)

word count: 1.2k

"and i know we weren't perfect but i never felt this way for no one"

draco and you shouldn't have worked. at all. a muggle born gryffindor and a pure blooded slytherin just didn't match. there were more differences. you were kind, soft-spoken, and so easily intimidated. draco was the exact polar opposite. in fact, your paths should have never crossed in the first place. and yet they did. the first meeting, in your first year, was the most vivid memory of your life. as you entered the Hogwarts express, your eyes met those of a small blonde boy. in that spilt second, you felt as if your whole body and mind were exposed and he saw and knew everything. and in turn, he eventually would know everything. it was this moment that tethered the two of you together. your essence was tangled in his heart, your soul ingrained within his very being. as graceful and seamless as a dance; that is how the two of you felt. and yet, there was a force against everything. the same force magnets have when norths are together. the very same repulsion was within the both of you. it was as if your bodies knew you didn't belong with each other but your souls couldn't bother to listen. in the beginning, you both ignored logic and listened to your hearts. what else could you do? a connection as strong as you both had couldn't be ignored, couldnt be shied away from.

the nights is where the two of you belonged. away from judging eyes. away from the pressures of the world. where you could encase yourself in darkness, the only light being each other. draco would hold you in his arms as you both watched the stars from the astronomy tower. there, he would tell his dreams for the future, dreams that always involved you. in fact, draco never could dream unless you were there in it. you would listen to his hopes and comfort him in the fact that they will come true. he would smile and hold you tighter. you would lean into a kiss where he would whisper "forever" onto your lips, waiting for the same word in response. forever. it was what the two of you always spoke together. it meant that no matter what, it was you and draco until the end. life, war, pain, nothing could come between you. because you both were in it forever.

"cause they'll never know you the way that I do"

no one knew, and that is how it had to stay. because it would ruin both of you. your friends would think of you as a traitor. draco's family would curse his love if they ever knew. so it was your little secret. it was hard, to be experiencing the most indescribable, passionate love and be forced to be silent. you wanted to scream from the astronomy tower. you wanted to gossip with hermione and ginny. draco wanted to just eat dinner with you, to share a meal. he wanted to be able to work together in classes, as you worked so well together. but all those were wants; they would never become actualities. so the most you could, was share everything with each other. draco knew every mistake, every dream, and every thought you had ever had. he told you his regrets, his secrets, and his desires. draco was so different from everyone's perceptions of him, but you werent allowed to share that. you were forced to listen to everyone's misconceptions and hatred towards him. it hurt, so deeply that no one knew the truth about the man you loved.

but this would all end soon. the night of november 24th burned in your mind. the night draco revealed his dark mark. the night you fell to your knees, sickened by what you saw. the night he grabbed your arm and it felt cold, his skin no longer filled with warm love. the night he saw the fear in your eyes at his touch and made a resolution to himself he would never cause that look again. the night that brought the truth fully and completely to light: that you and draco were destined against each other. it didn't matter what your heart said, it didn't matter that you only felt complete with him, it didn't matter that he finally felt safe in your arms. it didn't matter because you were destined to be the two north's of magnets. you were destined to repel. fate and nature would not allow anything else.

"and I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone"

draco sat alone in the courtyard, a behavior that he had become familiar with. and as he sat, his piercing eyes began to wander and by fate, landed upon you. you were laughing alongside neville fit with a smile that you normally reserved for him. and as much as draco wanted you to be happy, to move on, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of resentment. how could you laugh? how could you even bring a smile to your face? did his presence disappearing mean nothing to you? why could you go along as normal when he was dying inside? he felt his composure crumbling and ran out of the courtyard to the hall, physically unable to see you for a second more. he sat on the cold marble floor, desperately trying to contain himself. a group of first years passed and they couldnt help but watch the unraveling of draco malfoy. normally, he would have sneered at them, yelled at them to put them back into their place. but he could barely make himself move, let alone think of a clever comment. so there he stayed, on the floor, heaving to himself. 

but draco didn't know the smile was fake. he didn't know the laugh was forced. he didn't know your makeup was reapplied multiple times as your tears continued to smudge it. he didn't know that every night you silently sob into your pillow, desperately trying to relieve your heartache. he didn't know that everytime you saw him, an unspeakable pain encased your body. and he never would. despite everything, you still loved him. you still craved him. and because of this love and longing, you tried your best to appear in bright spirits in hopes it would make draco feel less guilt. because you knew what he was feeling, you always did. so you would go to class, smile and laugh, play quidditch with harry and ron, study in the library with hermione, help neville in the greenhouses. then only when you were alone, you would finally let your feelings out. open the flood gates of tears that had been holding back each and every day. but for now, you would stay smiling in the courtyard. 

so draco sat in the hall, unknowing and you stood in the courtyard, feigning a positive demeanor. forever meant nothing now. everything meant nothing now. there was no meaning. all there was bottled feelings and loneliness. 

"you said forever and now i drive alone past your street" 

a/n this is very different from my normal writing, please let me know what you think and if you have any suggestions!