TW self harm
Also I'm using mommy because I don't know if there is one for gender neutral
Y/n pov
Mommy can we make cookies
Sure Benji let me get out the stuff we need okay do you want to make cake cookies or regular
Cake cookies please I'll go wash my hands
Remember soap and water
Yes moma I know
Okay
I walk into to the kitchen and turn on the oven to preheat and grab all we need i hesitate before I pull up the sleeves of my hoodie i really don't want Benji asking questions
Benji comes in
Mommy look my hands are all clean and smell good
I giggle his smile is almost exactly like his dads
I see that you ready to make some cookies
Yay!
I put the cake mix and eggs in i let Benji put the oil and mix until it got to hard for him then I make sure it's mixed well then we start to put the cookies on the pan when ray walks in
Hey guys
Ray pov
I walk into the house I can hear y/n and Benji probably making some kind of sweetsI walk into the Kitchen and see my son and my partner making cookies but what looks like fresh cuts on y/n arms on top of old ones
Hey Ray-Ray
DADDY
Benji comes running with his tiny legs And brown curls like mine bouncing and hugs my legs I pat his back
Hey buddy what you guys making
cookies!
I chuckle at my adorable 5 year old
Y/n pulls down they're sleeves so I don't see the cuts they walk over and hug me
hey love
We lean into a soft kiss
EW GROSE
Oh Ben you have someone that you'll kiss like that one day
Nope
Me and y/n giggle at the comments our son makes
Y/n pov
I think ray saw my cutsI'll make dinner if you'll put Benji to bed tonight
Ray just nods
Time skip to after dinner
Ray is putting Benji to bed as I clean up the kitchen I hear rays footsteps heading to the kitchen As I wipe of the counter
I feel his hands on my waist turn me around and sat me on the counter
What's wrong why are you hurting yourself again
Ray i-i I'm sorry I've just haven't been feeling my self here lately
My voice started to Crack and tears stung my eyes
Baby no don't be sorry I just wanted to know
Ray pulls me into his arms
I love you but you need to talk to me not hurt your body love
I love you to ray-ray
Ok now where are the blades your using
I hop of the counter and walk into the master bedroom next to my night stand and take out two blades and a lighter Ray takes the them into his hands
A lighter?
I look at him and pull up my shirt just under "abs" where I've burned myself a couple times
Oh love
He pulls me into another hug filled with warmth and love
Im going to get rid of these okay
Okay
Ray walks of into another room but soon he's back and he gives me one of his hoodies And I grab a pair of pj pants
Ray put on a pair of pj pants and an old iron maiden shirt Ray gets into bed and I lay my head down on his chest
About 30-60 minutes later Benji walks in with red puffy eyes and a pouty lip Me and ray sit up
What's rong kiddo
I had a bad dream
Oh what was the dream about
You and mommy died and I was left with a mean old lady
Awe you want to lay with me and dad
Yes please
Okay Come her
I pated a spot on the bed for Benji and he crold up and layed down
Soon we all shut our eyes and fell asleep
A/n
This wasn't requested or anythingsorry that its kinda weird but here you guys go hey I know that there some out there that loves you and needs you so please don't kill yourself well just yet if you need to talk im always here just dm me
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