Song of the Wind

Kabanata 27

Contented

Nagpupuyos ako sa galit habang ako'y naglalakad sa daang pauwi. The place is enveloped with grass and mountains. I might be angry but at least I have a beautiful scenery ahead of me.

Rowan kept on nudging me but he wasn't successful. Natigil lang 'yon nang may humablot sa palapulsuhan ko.

I tsked at Sandro for stopping me.

"What do you want from me?" I coldly said.

Sa kabila ng galit ko ang siyang ikinalungkot ni Sandro. He look pained and worried with the way his wrinkled forehead and angled brows define his concern as he stared at me this close.

I couldn't properly think after what I've witnessed earlier.

"Cy..."

He pointed at his heart as he uttered my name. I knew he said my name as his lips curl to pronounce the letter c.

Hinablot ko sa kanya ang kamay ko at marahang hinawakan ang parte kung saan niya ako hinawakan. It wasn't firm nor soft, it was enough for him to hold on to me as if he is holding for his salvation.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?" Hindi ko sinasadyang diinan ang pagkakasabi ko roon.

I tried to control my anger since Rowan is already concerned of me. He kept on nudging his paw at me, alerting me to stop doing that can harm me.

He pressed his lips on a thin line as if he is having a hard time comprehending what he wants to express.

"About every bad things that happened between us. I know I am eight years late to comfort you, but I just want to talk to you and clear the guilt I longed endure."

Naalala ko ang pinangako ko kay Kendra na kausapin ko si Sandro. This is my opportunity to talk to him about the conflict between the two of us. I am doing this not for Kendra, but for me. I want to finally relieve the pain stabbing my chest for a long time now.

What happened between our parents remains as their problem, not ours. Baka nga tama si Kendra na walang kaalam-alam si Sandro sa gulo ng magulang namin.

Does he know about it? Probably yes. Magtataka kasi siya. Mommy kicked Sandro out of school the last year of his Senior High School before he could graduate. Since Mommy is a stockholder of the school, malaya niyang ginawa 'yon. Afterwards, wala na akong naging balita tungkol sa kanya.

Nang kinuwento ni Mommy ang ginawa niya kay Sandro, hindi ko mawari kung ano ba itong nararamdaman ko. I feel guilty that he got kicked out because of me and at the same time, I feel satisfied.

Now that he is standing in front of me, proving to me that he can favor the odds however he likes, marahan akong nilalamon ng mangha at inggit.

Ito na naman tayo, Cybele. Palagi na lang akong naiingit.

I looked away from him and occupied my attention to my dog, Rowan. I gave him a treat and patted his head for doing a good job.

The breeze tickled my skin as my hair flowed with the wind. It wasn't gentle nor as rough as it can be whenever it is spring.

Hinayaan ko si Sandro na nakatingin lang sa akin habang ako'y abala kay Rowan. After giving Rowan the attention we both want, sinabihan ko siya,

"We'll talk tomorrow before sun set." Iyon ang tangi kong sinabi bago siya talikuran at naglakad palayo sa kanya.

I do not have the courage to face him. Inabala ko ang sarili sa aking aso dahil gusto nang tumulo ng luha ko.

Oh, how long has it been since the last time I felt his touch. He changed a lot and eight years of being with him was robbed from me. My dreams wasn't simple nor as complex as my mother's plans. Gusto ko lang naman makita ang mundo na may pag-asa sa aking mata.