Blue [Chaelisa]

twenty eight

Chaeyoung watched as Lisa's eyes fluttered back into reality, immediately searching the room for the familiar blonde girl. Lisa met Chaeyoung's gaze tentatively, looking for any sign of anger or danger. When she was only met with pure adoration, Lisa moved swiftly forwards and threw her arms around Chaeyoung.

"I tried," she mumbled, squeezing her eyes shut and tucking her head into the crook of her girlfriend's neck. The Thai girl held her breath to contain her tears.

"What?" Chaeyoung whispered, grabbing Lisa's shoulders and separating them. "What are you talking about?" She watched as tears clouded Lisa's eyes. Chaeyoung moved forwards to pull her girlfriend into another hug, but Lisa stopped her, shaking her head.

"I want to talk," Lisa sniffed, wiping her eyes. Chaeyoung hated to see Lisa struggling, but the blonde girl held herself back. Lisa took a deep breath.

"I-I did a bad thing to you, didn't I?" Lisa whispered. Before Chaeyoung could speak, Lisa shook her head and continued talking. "I do not... I do not remember the bad thing. But... I tried, Rosie," she reached up and traced Chaeyoung's jawline with her index finger, letting it linger on her face for a moment.

"You tried?" Chaeyoung said softly. She placed a hand on Lisa's arm, trying to ease her to continue. The Thai girl nodded furiously.

"The things they said..." she shook her head. "They were bad." Lisa didn't quite understand much of the meaning of what she remembered, but she could tell just by the tone of the girl's voices that they were anything but nice to Chaeyoung. And it infuriated her.

"I tried, Rosie, I tried," Lisa bit her lip. "I did not want them to say those things to you, I did not!" She threw her hands down at her sides, becoming frustrated with her inability to express her words.

"Hey, hey," Chaeyoung shook her head, grabbing Lisa's wrists and forcing her to look up. "Breathe," she whispered, rubbing Lisa's arms to calm her down. "Take your time."

"I... I tried to stop them," Lisa reached up to roll her bottom lip inbetween her fingers, looking down at the ground.

"You did?" Chaeyoung asked, somewhat surprised with Lisa's words. The younger girl nodded softly.

"Those things were not good for you," Lisa whispered. "It hurts to know that I could not help," she hung her head down, disappointed with her past self. How could she have been so cold?

"It got me here, didn't it?" Chaeyoung squeezed Lisa's hand. The girl looked up in confusion.

"I mean, yeah, it sorta sucked at the time. Not gonna lie," Chaeyoung shrugged and bit her lip. "But what if it hadn't happened? What would my life be like? Would I be here with you? Or would I be somewhere else?" She watched Lisa's eyes shine with realization. "I wouldn't go back to change it and risk never meeting you."

"You... you would not?" Lisa looked up in disbelief. Chaeyoung laughed softly and shook her head.

"Never in a million years," she kissed Lisa's forehead and reached up to adjust her bow. "If you can't tell, I'm pretty happy with things just the way they are. And I'll be even happier when all of this sucky stuff..." she motioned around the room. "...is behind us."

Lisa nodded softly. Her mind was all over the place. She could barely focus her eyes on one place. None of this made sense, yet all of it did. She was confused, yet completely content. It was an unexplainable feeling.

"Y'think you can walk around a little more?" Chaeyoung bit her lip nervously.

Lisa studied her girlfriend's face. That was the one thing that always remained constant. Everything could change and she could be perfectly fine as long as every time she looked up, she was met with the same pair of chocolate eyes. They captured her, pulling her away from everything bad and making everything okay, even if just for a moment.