Neverending Thoughts & Feelings | Poems

Selfishness | pt. 2

Maybe, it wasn't all about selfishness.

I'm sorry I failed again.
Do you hear me?

I failed, because you saved me.

Mother always knows best.
And when mother says, I'm worthless, than that's true.

Because mother always knows best.

I'm sorry I couldn't make you proud.
I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy, because I've failed once again.

This means, that after all it wasn't only my selfishness. My own desire.

I wanted to make you proud.
I wanted to make you happy.
But I couldn't.. because I felt guilty.

I'm sorry.
I disappointed you again.

I not only wanted to make my biggest dream come true.
I wanted to make yours come true.

So you could finally be happy.
So you could finally smile.
So you could finally be proud of me.

But no matter what I do, it will always stay the same, right?

You'll always hate me.

So I have to hate you back. So I won't feel this pain, right?