I've Been Damaged [matty healy + george daniel au] [boyxboy]

t w o .

I went to school.

Numb.

I just feel like a walking nothing.

I don't wanna eat.

So I'm skipping breakfast.

I decided to go to Mrs. Spossberg's class.

"Hi Matthew" she said as I walked in.

"Hey"

She looked at my neck which is obviously bruised. Not like love bites but like I was attacked. violently.

"What happened?"

"Nothing"

"Okay then" she said

"Can I do my make up work in here today please?"

"Sure" she said.

This is why I love her.

She doesn't ask too many questions.

It's almost like she understands.

The bell rang and kids rushed in.

"Alright class, let's go over study guide"

"Umm... Mrs. Spossberg, I don't have one" George, the new kid said.

"Oh sweetie, I forgot"

She stood up, gave him a study guide, and he took it.

"Matthew, do you think you can give him what we have covered already?"

That took me by surprise. I really don't want to. I love being by my lonesome but I don't be rude.

"Okay" I said.

George got up and sat beside me.

"Hi, I'm George" he said with a wave.

"Matty" I quickly greeted.

I pulled up my black turtleneck to cover up my neck so he wouldn't be asking me any other questions.

As time flew by, he still sat by me even after he finished getting the answers from me. And I could feel him staring at me the whole time.

The bell rung.

"Alright class, see ya'll tomorrow" Mrs. Spossberg said.

George got up and was heading to the door.

"Thanks for the answers"

"Don't mention it" I said as I kept my head on the desk.

I skipped lunch but I ate a peanut butter and jam sandwich I brought with me.

Time flew by, and I completed all my make up work from when I ran away from school. Luckily, I seen that it was basically time to go home.

"Thank you for allowing me to stay in here Mrs. Spossberg"

"No problem sweetheart"

I waved bye to her and walked out to walk home.

Thank God that Adam and Ross was nowhere to be found.

Finally, A safe walk home.

When I got home, my dad wasn't home. Thank God.

I ran upstairs to my room and got on my Twitter.

I checked my notifications and they looked like the usual. all appreciation.

But then I saw I had a DM. I clicked to open it.

[@GDans1975] Umm i like your poetry. its very interesting.

[@Truman_Black] Thank you I appreciate it dearly

[@GDans1975] your context with words are deeply good. you should become an legit poet.

[@Truman_Black] wow thats really flattering. Thank you.

[@GDans1975] youre welcome. I can see you being the next Maya Angelou.

[@Truman_Black] Lol now youre being foolish

[@GDans1975] No seriously lol but i have a question.

I hesitated to respond but I did. I was enjoying the conversation.

[@Truman_Black] what is it

[@GDans1975] why is your poetry so dark?

I sighed before replying...

[@Truman_Black] because i live in darkness

[@GDans1975] idk why cuz you seem like a really sweet person

A smile graced upon my face. That truly made my day.

Thump! "OW!". I heard my dad downstairs. Probably drunk.

I didn't feel like seeing him so I decided to sleep with a smile on my face.

It was now morning. So I got up and got ready then walked to school.

I made it through the doors and as I was walking, I ended up falling. It felt more like I was tripped up by someone.

"Forgot about us, Gay Wad?"

I turned to see Adam along with Ross.

I stared.

I didn't say anything.

"Say something you punk!" Ross yelled as he punched me in the face.

Then Adam kicked me in the ribs.

"I know you're gay but not mute so say something bitch!"

"Leave him alone!" a familiar voice shouted.

Adrenaline rushed into me.

I got up

And ran to the boys' bathroom.

Why can't they leave me alone?

Why can't they stop?

I'm so tired of them.

I need something.

I crave something.

I always thought about cutting myself.

But I was always too chicken to do it.

I reached into my bookbag.

Found some scissors.

As soon as I held them against my wrist.

The door swung open.