TW: BLOOD, PANIC ATTACKS, AND DEATH
[Tommy POV]
"He's so loud, I can't say one word without hearing him over myself"
Hearing that months ago had no effect on me, but thinking about it now hurts more than anything.
"They never wanted you alive you know?"
"I know"
"Good, never forget it. It will be important to carry that hatred with you"
"You seem to know why they left me"
"You caused it, you should know more than I do"
"..."
Flickering images of my family show up in my mind, I can't stop it.
"Let me feel nothing" I plead to myself just wanting to die realizing what I must have done.
Blood starts to cover each image with a dark smear of red. It smells so fresh. I look down at my arms and don't even bother screaming when I see them covered in cuts and razor blades caused my skin to deflate because the blood seeping out of it.
I look in-front of me to see my own corpse, sitting on the ground.
"I deserve this"
My mind keeps flickering with thoughts and memories I'd rather die than see again. As my eyes start to shift back to reality, I start to make out the shape of a room around me. Attached to a wall, Wilbur's own corpse chained to a wall with piles of body parts and exposed bones underneath him.
I keep repeating to myself to force my mind against reality, "That's not Wilbur that's not Wilbur that's no-"
The corpse wakes up with a white glow in its eyes. It's mouth starts to open like it's about to say something. I blink for a second and I see him in-front of me, strangling me. The words he was trying to say finally escape his mouth and make out the words,
"Goodbye"
[Wilbur POV]
The ride has been decently good, but based on Tommy's condition, I have been debating on stopping at a hotel to rent a room for the night.
After about an hour he fell asleep, which I was disappointed about because I was hoping he could try to open up to me, but there's always another time.
"WILBUR!"
I pull the car over on the side of the highway, not even thinking to do anything before Tommy. I pull myself into the back of the car, only to see the happy soul, turned into a curled ball crying to be spared.
"Tommy, calm down, I'm here"
He seems to take notice of my presence and becomes more scared than he was earlier.
"DONT HURT ME, PLEASE IM BEGGING!"
"Tommy!"
He flinches at my sudden outburst, and weakly cries out, "sorry Will"
"Please don't apologize, I'm sorry. Can you tell me what happened"
"I s-saw myself dead a-and your body chained to a-a-a wall..."
"You tried to kill me, Wilbur"
[Tommy POV]
I shouldn't have told him, he'll leave me to die, he'll never forgive me, I did this to myself didnt I?
"Tommy..."
"I am so sorry, I will never hurt you, please tell me if this happens again, I will be here for yo-"
"Even if you did hurt me, I wouldn't care. I deserve it" Those words leave my mouth before I can say anything. I believe it wholeheartedly but Wilbur would flip if I said that.
I was expecting something like "Good, you've come to you senses" but instead he hugged me.
When he did, I felt all of my negative emotions decided it was time leave me, but not for good. I felt so horrible, rid of the truth, but it felt amazing at the same time.
"Never, say that again. You don't deserve this"
"Tommy whatever happened to you shouldn't have happened and I will never be able to empathize the feelings you emit"
But when he let go of me, I felt the same...
I mean, I still felt like shit but I felt a better being around Wilbur. Compared to how I felt earlier, I feel a lot safer.
But this one thought won't stop to leave my head....
"I managed to fuck up my life in 1 day didn't I?"
[Wilbur POV]
Letting go of Tommy seemed to pull him back to reality, but he seemed happier.
"This could be the time to talk to him"
"Wilbur..?"
"Yes Tommy?"
"..."
"You don't have to say it if you don't want to"
"I managed to fuck up my life in 1 day didn't I?"
"Tommy, whatever happened, I can guarantee was not your fault in any way shape or form"
"Wilbur... please don't leave me..."
"Tommy, I will never leave you"
I wrap my arms around his body and hug him right then and there. He seems to be better around me, but I can tell his worries are still there.
"Tommy?"
"Y-yes?"
"Do you want to continue driving or stay the night at a hotel?"
"Can we p-please continue?"
"No need for the pleasantries Tommy, let's hit the road."
I pull myself to the front of the car leaving Tommy in the back seat. I pay my hand on the Passengers seat motioning for him to come up into the front.
"Come up here Tom, let's hit the road already"
"Sorry wilby.."
"That's going in the quote book"
"What did I s-say?
"You said Wilby again"
"Oh..."
I start laughing but decided to quiet down to see if I made Tommy embarrassed.
"You ok?"
"Yah, just processing"
"There's nothing to process, you said it and that's it"
"No.... not that"
"Oh..."
He starts to cry slowly with the tears on his face leaving small faint red trails where the tears fell. I wish I knew more about what happened.
"Why Wilbur.... why does bad things happen to me?"
"Tommy, you never had bad things come your way, but whatever happened had to have to been bad, please tell me"
"..."
"Go on"
"They left me, Wilbur"
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Ah yes, 1000 words, finally. I hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing this! I'm grateful for all the reads and votes, I hope you enjoy.
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