The Living Fictions

Chapter 29

Chapter Twenty-Nine

I scoffed. “Mawalang-galang na po, Tita. I don't think it's the right thing to do—”

“Habang magulo pa ang mundo natin, sa ngayon, iyan muna ang nararapat na gawin.” She cut me off so I wasn't able to finish my sentence. “Ryden probably loves you. But it's not the right time yet, hija. So it would be the best if the both of you should break up.”

What? Ganoon-ganoon nalang iyon? I bet she understands that breaking up with someone isn't that easy. Tsaka? me breaking up with Ryden would be the best thing to do? Paano naman ako? Mas maayos ba ang pakiramdam ko ngayon kung wala si Ryden?

“Tsaka, bata pa kayo. Probably, your feelings will fade away easily.” She smiled but I couldn't find any reason to return her smile at all so I keep my poker face. “Sa tingin ko, iyan lang naman ang kailangan kong sabihin sa'yo, hija. Thank you for your time, aalis na'ko.”

And just like that, Ryden's Mom left me there hanging. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas, kahit nagsimula nang dumilim ang paligid, I wasn't still moving from my seat. Nanatili ako roon na nakatulala. I'm trying my best to understand her words but thinking about it keeps on making my heart shatter. Ayaw kong mawala si Ryden. I promised not to hurt him.

Hindi ko namalayan na sa ilang minuto kong pag-iisa rito sa lamesang ito ay patuloy palang dumadaloy pababa ang aking mga luha. I just suddenly realized that there was something warm liquid in my face slowly falling.

Nang tuluyan nang mag-alas siete ng gabi, I texted our driver to pick me up and gladly, it didn't took him long to come. At habang nasa loob ako ng sasakyan, mabuti nalang at hindi man lang niya ako tinatanong kung bakit ako umiiyak.

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“Aye, you should eat breakfast na. It's almost late.”

Kasabay ng pag-uunat ko ang aking paghikab. Nagising na lamang ko dahil naramdaman ko ang pagtapik ni Mommy sa aking mukha. Well, she just broke to my room wearing her business suite.

“Yes Mom, bababa na ako maya-maya.” I nonchalantly answered.

“Aalis na'ko. Baka late din akong maka-uwi mamaya. I have a lot to do in work.”

“Yes Mom, I'll lock the door properly. Don't worry.”

She signed. “Your Dad put bodyguards around the house so we can secure your safety here. H'wag kang magpapabaya sa pagkain, just rest well.”

Tumango ako. “Yes Mom, thanks.”

That day, I was left alone in our house. Actually, if this is just a normal day, I wouldn't mind being alone inside here. It's just that, being alone and feeling lonely at the same time makes my life sucks. House just seems suddenly getting larger and the gap of me and my parents gets larger as well. We never ask how we're doing. Just bidding goodbyes whenever we left the house and tell someone to eat already. Our family isn't not like other family at all. It seems like, just because of that night, our relationship became hazy.

It truly sucks but what could I do? I have to deal with this shit.

Even though I was feeling lonely, I never called anyone. Nagbasa na lamang ako ng libro. A comedy book that unusually didn't make me laugh at all. Because every single minute that had passed, I always remember last night and the reasons she stated why Ryden and I should cut ties with each other.

The next day, Mom left without a word. As well as Dad but I wasn't shock anymore. Just a bit disappointed. Nang gumising ako ay sobrang tahimik ng paligid. Tanging mga yapak ko lang pababa ng hagdan ang aking naririnig.