HEAL ME, BREAK ME

BROKEN PROMISES (HER STORY)

BROKEN PROMISES (HER STORY)

I was 18 years old back then,
When we first met,
The first time I laid my eyes on him,
And the first time someone caught my attention,

It was just an ordinary day,
But it is not like that for me,
The first time our eyes met,
My world suddenly stopped,

I cannot see nor hear anything,
Except for the sound of my heart’s beating,
Butterflies on my stomach,
And the electric current pass through us when our skin touches each other,

Since that day,
He and I did not part ways,
We became friends,
A friend with a special connection,

We always hang out together,
Eat together,
Study together,
And bullied each other,

People around us,
Always told us,
We suit each other,
That we are an example of a perfect match,

But both of us strongly contradicts the idea,
Like it will never happen,
We are both in the denial stage,
We both thought that what we felt toward each other is just mere care as a friend,

But both of us thought it wrong,
As the years passed by,
We come to realize that what we felt is not just an ordinary feeling felt toward a friend,
We knew deep inside our heart that this is more than a friend kind of feeling,

He courted me,
Without hesitation,
I gave my sweetest yes,
Since we knew we felt the same way,

Since that day,
He became much sweeter,
Much protective,
Much affectionate,

The way he cares,
The way he talks,
The way he acts,
And the way he treats me,

We did things like what normal couples usually do,
We do a little fight,
A little misunderstanding,
But we did not let the day ends without us being okay,

We create a lot of memories,
Memories that we will surely treasure for the rest of our lives,
We shed tears,
Tears of both happiness and loneliness,

Many people said that we are an example of a perfect couple,
Surely did they know that we will end up being together as one,
We just gave them a wide smile,
Since both of us also thinks that way,

We created a promise,
He promised that he will wait for me inside the altar,
In front of God and front of our beloved friends and families,
And I am still holding unto that promise,

But things started to go wrong,
We broke up,
Because there is a fight that cannot just be solved,
But still, we remain best friends,

The day has come,
As I walked in the middle of the aisle,
Then there he is,
Standing in front of the altar,

Listening to our favorite song,
A song that reminds us how 'perfect' we are in each other eyes despite our imperfections,
As I marched towards him,
I saw his tears drop as well as mine,

I went nearer and nearer,
Till our space got smaller,
The pain was visible in his eyes,
The deep longing can be seen,

He gave me a bitter smile,
A smile that did not reach his eyes,
I still love him,
I still do and it hurts,

At last, it is my wedding day,
Him as the best man of my groom,
And me as his best friend’s bride,
Everything was so perfect,

We fulfilled our promises,
But not the way it was supposed to be,
We knew that there was still a glimpse of love towards each other,
Nevertheless, we will remain in each other’s hearts forever,

A painful memory,
A deep scar in each other’s heart,
There are just things that cannot be,
No matter how badly we want it to be.