HEAL ME, BREAK ME

A WOUND THAT CANNOT BE HEALED

A WOUND THAT CANNOT BE HEALED

Waking up from my greatest nightmare,                      
I guess that is my every night routine since then,
Since when you left without leaving any trace,
With doubts and confusions, I am being embraced,

I am in pain,
I am in vain,
But no one seems to notice,
No one paid attention,

Living in an empty world,
No life,
No tomorrows,
No future,

Walking in the hallway halfdead,
No plans where to go,
No idea where to start a new,
It feels like walking in an infinite road,

It feels like someone stab me from my back,
I feel abandoned,
I feel betrayed,
I am all alone.

Then here comes my knight in the shining armor,
Lifting me from the darkness,
Once more I fell in love,
I love him that it hurts,

Thinking that this relationship we have will only lead us to nowhere,
That this relationship is just temporary,
Forgive me for my doubts,
But what can I do? If loving someone still counts,

Loving someone is like hugging the pain,
You will get hurt,
Broke,
And damage,

I am still running and trying to escape from my cruel reality,
I am still struggling in trusting people,
The wound is still fresh,
I think shielding myself is the best thing to do,

But you are too strong,
You are so persistent,
That you even break the wall I made,
The wall I made to protect myself,

I cannot do anything to stop it,
You already let my guard down,
And I hope for the second time around,
I will not regret anything,

They said everyone deserves a second chance,
I think I should give my heart a chance,
A chance to love again,
Yes! I am willing to take the risk,

Even if it means letting the pain be back again,
Avoiding the pain cannot make the wound hurt less,
Fighting and accepting it is what I think the best,
So that the wound will slowly heal,

Even though how much we think of it,
Forgiving and forgetting is not enough,
The scar that someone made will stay forever,
Nonetheless, it will remain as memories,

The scar will just remain as a scar,
It will never be wide open again,
Just accept that everything happens for a reason,
Then it will just remain as it is memory without bitterness.