I push back only to see a furry of red hair. God damn it.
“Ed Sheeran, what the actual fuck was that?!” I say, getting pissed off.
“I missed you.” He says with a smile.
“Missing does not equal to kissing Captain, ‘I-Love-You-Now-I-Don’t.’” I say, throwing my hands up in air. He sighs and leans against the door way.
“Rachel, I-“ He starts but I cut him off.
“No. Just stop.” I say, putting my hand up in a stopping motion. I as I look at him a song pops into my head, and God damn it, my music describes my life better than I ever could.
“Just listen to m-“
“There’s a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend. And there’s a fine, fine line between reality and pretend.” I sing at him.
“Are you really going to sing at me?” He asks, suddenly amused. I nod and continue.
“And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb. There's a fine, fine line between love, and a waste of time.” I say, making hand gestures. “There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie. And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye." I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime, but there's a fine, fine line between love, and a waste of your time…” I say, preparing for the painful next line.
“And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore. I don't think that you even know what you're looking for. For my own sanity, I've got to close the door and walk away... Oh...” I say and get a little quieter for the next line, because now that I'm actually singing it, I'm thinking about the words and how fully they relate to my life.
“There's a fine, fine line between together and not. And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got. You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime... There's a fine, fine line between love… And a waste of time…” I say, ending my song while looking at him.
“Luv, that was a beautiful song, but it doesn’t relate to our situation.” He says, coming into my room and getting closer to me.
“Really? Because I think it does! You like me, you don’t, you LOVE me, and then you don’t. Make up your mind! I don’t think you know what you want.” I say, not moving because I don’t want to get any closer to him. I don’t want to see him, I don’t want to talk to him, I don’t want to be near him! I just want him to go away.
“I know what I want.” He says, walking up to me and putting his hands on both of my arms. “I want you, Rachel.” He says, looking down at me and crashing his lips down to mine. I don’t react, I just stand there, eyes open, not allowing him to wiggle his way into my heart again. Finally, he pulls back and just looks at me.
“Rachel, I love you.” He says, looking at me, and I freeze. I am not going through this again.
“Oh really? And in how many hours are you going to tell me to forget it?” I ask, allowing my voice to take a harsh tone and crossing my arms over my chest.
“Please, I didn’t want to do that.” He said, a sadness coming into his eyes.
“Then why did you do it?!” I ask, getting more frustrated by everything he’s saying.
“Management.” He says, guiltily.
“You don’t have to do everything Management tells you, you know.” I say, exasperatedly, and sitting down on my bed, he comes over and sits down next to me.
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As Happy As I've Never Been...
FanfictionAs Rachel's friends win tickets to a band she's never heard of, her life changes... She meets people who believe in her, and some who don't. Twist ending, be prepared.