White Rose (rewriting)

22

A/N: This is like 100% filler/laying foundation for (Y/N) character development. It's kinda boring lol. Anyways, I'll try to make the next chap better ^_^

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Days blur bye uselessly, i feel like shit as each one passes as well. Every day feels the same. Wake up, sit around at school, go home and sleep. It's all the same. It's always the same. It'll never change.

I distance myself from everyone. I don't know why I feel this way. I can't bring myself to be around them. I quit attending school for a week before my mother notices and forces me to go back.

I step foot onto campus, some how more unamused than I usually would be. People chatter all around me, but I couldn't care less. Their idle chatter and gossip. It's all useless. I sit at my desk. It's early. Very few people are there. I don't pay attention to them anyways.

I pull out my phone. Mindlessly scrolling. Mindlessly clicking. A voice interrupts the dull routine.

"Good morning, (Y/N)! It's been a while since you attended class, I was so worried!" Zoe says.

For the first time that week, I genuinely smile. I can't help the tears that well up in my eyes, but I wipe them away anyways.

"Good morning Zoe," I say in a rather weak voice.

She immediately scoops me into a warm hug. I forgot what it felt like to be loved. To be appreciated. I'm so glad I have these people in my life, even if I don't express it well.

I pull away from the hug.

"I missed you, I should have come to class."

"Everyone needs a break sometimes, (Y/N)," Another voice chimes in. It's Mira.

I don't speak to her often, but she's really an amazing person.

"Thank you Mira. Please take your own advice, though."

She beams at me and sits at her desk. I sit back down too. More and more people enter the classroom. The teacher enters briefly to take attendance, and then they're nowhere to be seen. I'll never get used to it. I wonder if the other teachers are like this, or if it's just this one.

I shrug, not really taking any more interest in the useless thought. I glance around the room. Everyone's doing their own thing. Things that I'm not a part of. Even things I wouldn't want to be a part of. I sigh and pull out my phone. It's around 9 am.

Just two hours until lunch. At least that's something to look forward to. I doze off and wait for the bell to ring.

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A/N 2: Not edited lol. it's 2 am and i'm tired af. If there's any errors lmk.