||- tough love -||

S 1 - ep 6

As i pulled away so things would go too far as people were still downstairs he just gave a look...

"Say it"
He said which i knew exactly what he wanted me to say

"Say what"
I said teasing him a bit

"Teasing me now i see Rory huh"
He said as his finger tips stroked my neck up and down

"Mmm..maybe...but i haven't heard you say it before"
I said challenging him,
Within seconds his lips connected with my neck as he started slightly sucking on my skin while i let out a small moan of pleasure.
he slightly pulled away nearer to my ear as he whispered

"I love you too Rory"
He whispered which sent shivers down my spine.
I wasn't sure how to feel. I said it to make him feel better but did i actually like him like that?
Ugh i dont know but i cant back out now because he will hate me !!!

I had not a single clue on what to do but what i was about to do wasn't the best decision either.
i pushed him so that now he was laying on the bed on his back as i sat on his crotch moving my hips side to side as i felt a small bulge hit my leg slightly as his hand pulled my body closer as i bent down to crash my lips onto his hungrily

"You have no clue what you have just done Rory"
He said warning me which made me smirk

"Oh i know"
I said confidently which sooner went as he flipped us around so now he was hovering over me once again

"I want you. Now"
He said as the smirk plastered on his face only grew wider.

Honestly my mouth slightly dropped.
wtf....
He was my best friend and now we are both....what...friends with benefits or..lovers?!?

and there is no way we could do that.... now in this situations, not this time. Not while there is a meeting downstairs.
And i don't think it would be quite right.

As i was still in shock of what said I couldn't speak a single word.
so i think he assumed that was an agreement when it was the opposite.

His hand slowly unbuttoned my shirt as his hand glided under my shirt as his fingertips glazed on top of my skin,
As he was getting more and more touchy i didn't know how to stop him...
don't get me wrong, yea i was enjoying it, but something made me feel some what guilty.

As he lifted my shirt to reveal my half naked body he grinned as he gently left kisses down from my collar bone down to my stomach,
As soon as his hands ended up on the bottom of my trousers i knew i had to stop him. Even if i liked it or not

"Ethan..."
I said as he gave his attention back to me

"Hm"
He said as he looked intensely into my eyes with lust

"...we cant..."
I said struggling as the weight got lifted of my back.
his expression almost instantly dropped

"What do you mean we cant"
He said in the same tone but confused trying not to be too shouty with me

"It just doesnt feel right."
I said admitting and he got off of me as he paced around in the room

"What do you mean it doesn't feel right! You kiss me, you tease, you say you love me and now you say this?!?"
He said as i felt guilty all over again....

"I'm sorry okay.i just-"
I managed to say as i hated myself for making him feel like this.

"Right, no wonder! Your exactly like your mum, no wonder your dad hates you so god damn much! No wonder your mum-"
He yelled but couldn't finished the sentence as he realised what he said