Someone is sitting next to her now. It might be Tyler.
He says something to Jenna, who's still sitting beside Mari.
She nods and slips away.
Tyler turns to her and asks her something.
But-
"I. Can't."
Mari feels the minutes slipping out of her grasp, feels them crawling away from her, never to return to her.
Not in a thousand lifetimes.
So why does she just sit and watch as her life goes by?
"I can't make myself try," Mari whispers. "I'm scared that if I try-try to push myself, make myself move at that same insane pace as before-just running, running away...I'm scared that I'll only hurt myself more."
She sighs quietly to herself.
"So...let go," Tyler whispers.
Let go, and try again in the morning.
I can't let go now, Mari thinks. It's all become-part of me. Has been for so long...
Community. Belonging.
Those words rush through her mind and she has to drag her mind away from that dark place.
She is loved.
...Right?
Mari closes her eyes.
Maybe-
Her heart pounding, she gets up.
Hopes her efforts will be worth it-get her something in the end.
Because if there's anything she hates more than anything, it's trying, trying so hard, only for no one to care.
A lone tear trickles down her face, but she quickly brushes it away.
Trying trying trying so hard.
Grappling with her emotions-
They. Will. Not. Win.
She will find peace in this.
No one-no one-will be able to say she didn't try.
No one.
"Where are you going-"
"To make things right," Mari says firmly. "Are you coming with me?"
"Yes," Tyler says, nodding at her. "I'm coming."
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Øverturning the lies (a twenty one pilots fanfiction)
FanfictionTyler is alone in the city of Dema. He can't remember who he was before then. All he knows now is trying to survive in this world. He sees others around him who are struggling too, and he wants to help them. But he can't. He can't even seem to help...
