Consequences

Chapter 10: Crying Face

ARIANA'S POV:

My body was extremely tensed. Yeah, I know that he promised me that he won't hurt me... But, that won't change who he is. He's the leader of the most powerful gang, Cosa Nostra. HE IS THE XANDER STEFANI! Promises mean literally NOTHING to a person like HIM! I can't trust someone just like that AND OBVIOUSLY NOT WHEN IT'S SOMEONE LIKE HIM!

I sighed and I couldn't even look at him. He probably understood that I was in a trance... in a conflict with my mind and started to caress my cheeks. He put my hair behind my ears as he brought his face closer to mine. Then he whispered softly in my ears, "Don't get so worked up, Ari. There's literally nothing to be worried about."

Uneasiness clouded me when he started to bring his face closer to mine. Ours lips were again inches apart... not even inches, I guess. Our lips were literally in touch! He tugged my hair and wrapped his hands around my waist. He pulled my face closer to kiss me. When suddenly, realisation hit me hard!

"XANDER, STOP!"

I was terrified and started trembling!

"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked anxiously. "I won't do anything to you against your will, don't panic."

"Y-yo-u..." I couldn't even speak properly. I was petrified. "You did all these to... to... h-ave me, didn't you?"

I'm scared of having sex. I'm scared that I'll be used by men just to satisfy their needs and then, will be thrown away like an object or worse, I'll be abused and tortured. Thus, I thought that he was being nice earlier just to get between my legs.

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

"You were nice to me. You promised me that you won't hurt me. But, in reality YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME! You did all these to.... do this."

He crossed his arms and asked me in a neutral tone, "I don't care about you?"

I looked at him with fear in my eyes and he was about to say something and hold my waist when I took some steps away from him, anxiously.

"Don't touch me!" I exclaimed out of fear and anger. "You all are THE SAME!" You're just like Desmond! You wanted to take advantage of me and use me like an object, just like them..."

He made a straight face and said, "Ariana, you're seriously speaking nonsense, right now."

My expression went blank. "I'm speaking nonsense? Today morning, you said that you're NOT INTERESTED IN ME and now you wanna sleep with me?"

My calmness changed to anger really quick as I yelled, "I'm speaking nonsense?!"

My anger issues hit in and I started screaming at him.

"Will this even mean SOMETHING to you?! NO! Because this will be just a casual one night stand for you! Besides neither of us have any fucking feelings for each other! Then why-"

He cut me short and shrugged his shoulders as he said, "Yes, it honestly won't mean anything to me and you don't need to like someone or some shit to just mess around." He rolled his eyes and said in an insanely cold tone, "It's something that'll last only for a night and not for a LIFETIME."

I looked at him. My emotions were dumb and blank. He wanted to use me aferall!

He crossed his arms and continued, "For me, it's all about satisfying my needs and not some romance bullshit."

I sighed. I need to learn how to control my emotions and calmly handle the situation.

"Xander, I understand that you're probably used to having women swooning over you. But, don't mistake me to be one of them. I'm not Ashley or whatever her name is, that I'll let you do whatever you want with me."