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Chapter 8: Shooting Star

I went straight home after having a coffee with Jennie. Even when I was a little distracted I admit I had fun with her, she seems nice and well mannered.

I shift from side to side as I try to make myself fall asleep. I tried different positions and prayed to every deity I know just to let me sleep but The Sandman never visited me.

A certain group of words keeps playing in my mind. 'Because you make me want to live'

I groaned and checked the time on my phone, it's 2 am I just wanna sleep and deal with this tomorrow, but I don't even know what to do. Should I talk to her? Give her some space? Should I really stop bringing fruits?

Ughhhhhh my head is aching. Am I really an adult? I can't even make a decision, this is frustrating. I went off my bed and took my jacket, I need to jog to clear my mind.

I'm out for more than an hour, I jogged to clear my mind but I got shocked to where my feet lead me. The hospital

I stared at the building, it's bright. All the lights are on, but why do I feel gloomy? I walked in the hospital and was greeted by some staff

"Nurse Lisa, you're too early is there an emergency?" one of the staff asked

"There's no emergency, don't worry" I replied

"Okay, I'll go now since I'm busy" she then walked away. I fished my phone out of my pocket to look at the time. It's 3:17, good thing I don't do night shifts

I wander around the hospital and walked through the hallways, I didn't even notice I'm in front of 'her room'. She must be sleeping, I opened the door slightly and peaked, to my surprise she's awake and we made eye contact. It lasted for a few seconds, it was silent and all I can hear is my heart beating.

She broke the silence first and awkwardly waved her hand "Hi" she said unsurely. I now opened the door and went inside her room

"Hi" I said with both hands behind my back looking like a scared kid who was getting scolded by her mom for losing her tupperware

"How's your day off?" she asked

"It's good"

"Good" she said then everything went silent again

"You kn-"

"I'm so-" We both spoke at the same time

"You can go on first" I said

She inhaled and exhaled heavily "I'm sorry" her hand fidgets as she speak "I know you're trying your best, and I always make things worse by saying I'm dying and don't want to live. But the truth is I want to live, badly" her tears rolled down her cheek "It's just that I'm scared. I want to be happy, I want to talk to people, I want to travel the world, I want to draw, I want to watch the stars, I-I want to hang out with you" I went to her side and wiped her tears "But I'm scared that's why I distance myself from people, I don't want them to suffer. I don't want 'you' to suffer"

"It's never too late to be happy, you know. People who wants to know you will suffer more if you don't let them in your life knowing they could've helped and do something"

"But it's getting worse, I can feel it" she looked at me, fear visible from her eyes "I'm scared Lisa"

"Hyun, I'm here. I won't leave you" I hugged her tight and caressed her back "I'm here"

"I know" she replied. We stayed in our position for more than a minute, I let go of her and asked her

"Do you want to see the stars?"

"But it's morning"

"It's..... " I looked at the time from my phone "nearly four" I went to the window and peaked through the curtains "It's still dark outside" I said and smiled at her

"Let's go?" I asked her and she nodded "Lemme get a wheelchair first, I'll be back" I went out of her room to get a wheelchair, I returned and put it beside her bed. I was about to carry her to the wheelchair when she spoke

"I can perfectly stand Lisa, no need to carry me" I was dumbfounded, of course she can! She sat on the wheelchair comfortably

"Let's go see the stars" she giggled like a happy kid.

"As you wish"

We're on the rooftop staring at the sky, the cold breeze brushed on our exposed skin

"It's quite chilly in here" she said and rubbed her hands. I removed my jacket and helped her put it on

"Thanks" she stared at the sky, amusement is visible on her eyes

"You look pretty when you smile" I said

"I still look pretty even if I don't smile" she replied cockily

"So cocky" I said and rolled my eyes

"What was that?" she raised her eyebrow and looked at me sternly

"I said so lucky, so lucky. I wish I look good too even when I don't smile"

"Yes, that's why you should smile all the time even when you're asleep"

"Hey that's mean" I pouted and we both laugh.

"Look there's a shooting star!" I pointed at the sky

"Really? I didn't see it" she said "You should make a wish" I nodded and closed my eyes as I made my wish

"What did you wish for?"

"I'm not telling you or else it won't come true" I said and sticked my tongue out

"I understand, I'd do the same thing if I were you. Well, I hope whatever you wish may come true" she smiled

Yes, I hope it comes true.

I wish that you'll never leave