But for me so skip if you want
Trigger warning
Tells rp crush you like them
They like you too
They say the two of you shouldn't date because you only knew each other for a couple of months
You accept this
They continue to flirt with you and tell you how much they wish to see you and kiss you out of rp
You do the same
They go to summer camp for a week
Tells everyone they got married at summer camp
You take it lightly since everyone on the server got platonically married yetsomething told you to take it serious
Goes to the movies come back home ready to share you glee with someone you love
Find a message of them saying how wonderfully you are but the person they found at summer camp was someone they love more, and that's who they've been talking to for awhile, and how it felt wrong to love you despite the fact you only two years apart, and how their sorry, and you were the only reason they stayed in the gc
Starts crying in your room
Your mom calls for dinner
You have to shut your entire emotions down to get your food and go to your room
Loose your entire will to eat
Starts thinking of everything
How long you spent loving this person
How they were your will to do everything
Your will to wake up and live
Your will to write
Your will breath
Think of how things feel as if its crumbling for you
Feel suffocating
Your everything is now nothing
Your everything has left you
So you question if you did something wrong
If your love wasn't enough
The nights you spent loving them
Question if you were actually pretty to them
If you ever was pretty
Question if your anything
Question your purpose
And why any of this matters
Gets mad that this happened
Mad that they abandoned you for someone they knew for a week
Want them to beg for you back
Want to escape this
You want to end it all
Cries more
Think of how many Hopeless attempts at love you had
Feel broken
Wish this was it
Wish you didn't have to do this
Wish you were free
Wish you didn't need love
Wish you didn't to have a heart
Wish you were cold
Wish this never happened
Wish they haven't effected your heart
Wish you weren't crying
Because your last partner left
And you weren't crying then
You were hardly bothered
Yet this one's making you sob
And cry
It's leaving you to think
It's not just one of your ex's
It's someone you thought was your soulmate
You were ready to give this person everything
You were devoted to this person
And they said they were devoted to you
They said they loved you
They warned you not to throw the word around as if you didn't know what it met
Yet they through it so aimlessly towards you
With no care
No care at all
They lied to you
They said they loved you
That you were theirs
That they couldn't wait to hold you in their arms and cuddle with you
And this all happened on a Friday night after you went to the movies.
On a happy day everything crumbled
Because they had the audacity to admit on that day they didn't feel shit for you
And you were just their bitch
Their toy
Their fucking dog
That you weren't anything
Moral of the story love is shit
And never and I mean NEVER fall for anyone
Because they will break your heart
And they won't give a damn about you
Because they met someone after "loving" you for a week and fell in love.
And your trash compared to them
YOU ARE READING
Trans innit
FanfictionTommy been thinking a lot about their self, not even sure who they are in the mirror anymore. everything been so much different after a stream he did as a thank you for 5.1 mil on twitch.
