L is for love | a Blesiv Story

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Once I got home everyone was in the living room. They all looked at me

An - y/n come here

I was scared because I didnt know what was gonna happen. I sat in between manuel and Anthony

D - I don't want to keep living like this...with tension in the air-

Y - ok so dont, just apologize

M - for what

Y - for saying shit to me

D - oh

Y - I don't even think an apology could fix it you called me a disgrace and blamed me for the accident then when I had Alex here mom said I wasnt her daughter also the fact that you didnt know why to apologize also upsets me

M - this isn't your house to be bringing boys in

Y - and I get that and maybe I wouldnt have done that if people would actually help me

An - me and manuel helped

Y - yeah but in different ways, Alex made me happy when I needed to be and he actually took care of me he loves me unlike my own 2 parents which honestly I dont even like calling y'all that because of what you did

M - and we are very sorry

Y - ok what do y'all want me to do forgive you?

D - yes thats exactly what we want you to do

Y - mhm well your gonna have to try even harder I'm going up to my room

I walked upstairs to my room and laid on my bed. All of this was just stupid and I hated it. I looked at my mirror and I could see the box poking out. I turned around and covered my face

Y - no I can't I'm in a good spot right now with Alex and I'm going to malibu in *checks time* 1 hour

I laid there but got bored so I decided to go on a walk. I got my phone then started walking downstairs. I didnt see anyone so I just walked out the door. As I was walking I was thinking about everything how my parents disowned me and want fix everything by saying sorry. I hate not being able to talk to my dad but the things he did werent right either. I started getting in my feelings making me cry. I couldnt even see where I was going I just kept walking. Eventually I got to the park so I continied walking and ended up at the bridge. I leaned over the edge and it just looked so peaceful. I wanted my life to be this peaceful. I got up and sat on the edge just thinking and still crying. I was getting to the point where I just wanted to leave and not be here anymore. My thoughts got interrupted by someone face timing me so I looked at my phone and saw it was Alex. Just seeing the picture of him kissing me and us happy made me smile because there are people who truly love me here and need me. It felt as if Alex was my guardian angel since he always called or talked to me at the right times. I answered it but didnt show my face

A - ok I have a question on my shoes

Y - what

You could hear I was crying in my voice so I covered my mouth

A - are you ok? Where are you?

I quickly wiped my tears then showed my face

Y - I'm fine

A - let me go pick you up

Y - no Alex it doesn't even matter anymore just drop it

A - I can't just drop it I need to know your ok

Y - I'm ok

I got off the edge of the bridge and started walking back

A - where you just on that?