L is for love | a Blesiv Story

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(Can we admire how Alex is very photogenic like he looks good in any photo even when he's sleeping)

It was 5 in the morning and I could not sleep for shit. Alex on the other hand was passed out clinged onto my waist. I was playing with his hair but couldnt stop thinking about the baby thing so I decided to do some research. I grabbed my phone and turned the brightness all the way down. I was looking up stuff about how to know if you are pregnant or what to expect when you do get pregnant. After reading that I knew I was not ready to be pregnant right now. What about school or what about actuallly affording the baby...well...I dont have to worry about that. We would probably have to get our own house  and I won't be able to go to school now. What if my mom kicks me out and doesnt give me enough time to get my own house. The biggest question what if me and Alex break up then what? Would I keep the baby? Or would he? Do I even want to keep the baby? If I get pregnant I could have an abortion so I wouldn't have to put the baby in misery, but I know Alex would want it. It's not his choice tho I can do whatever I want. I'm probably gonna end up keeping the baby because I love babies. My thoughts got interrupted by Alex

A - *sleepy voice* what time is it

Y - uh 5

A - why are you up so early

Y - I haven't gone to sleep

A - why what's wrong

He sat up with a worried look on his face

Y - nothing I just can't sleep

I saw him glance at my phone then he took it from me softly and turned it off. He put it on the nightstand

A - stop thinking about it so much

Y - I can't

A - just think about me or something

Y - alex I CANT! This could be a fucking baby what the fuck am I supposed to do? This shit could ruin my whole life and my future. I just got back on good terms with mom and I know for a fact she is not letting me stay in the house with the baby

I started crying because I just felt helpless. I always cry when things get hard I dont know why tho. Alex just looked at me clearly not knowing what to do

Y - I just don't want to be on earth anymore it-

A - don't say that

He hugged me then pulled me onto his lap. I kept crying

Y - how am I supposed to keep a baby alive when I can barely keep myself alive

A - y/n stop please

He laid us down on our sides then kissed my chest

A - I dont want you to get worried until we know for sure your pregnant ok

Y - ok

I knew that wasn't gonna be possible but I just wanted to make him feel better. He covered me then played with my hair

A - go to sleep baby girl

I hugged him tight and fell asleep. They next morning I woke up to kisses on my face. I opened my eyes and of course it was Alex

A - do you have any clothes

Y - nope

A - well get dressed so we can go to the store

Y - oh about that, pregnancy test won't show if I'm pregnant until like 2 weeks after

A - oh

Y - yeah so were gonna have to wait

A - well I guess we can go the Sunday after the one thats coming up

Y - *nods*

A - I still want to go to the store tho

Y - for what

A - I need more shampoo

Y - what store

A - target

Y - ok but I still need clothes

A - do you want to wear pajamas

Y - sure

He pulled out red plad pajama pants and a black hoodie

A - here

He put it on the bed

Y - thanks

He changed into red basketball shorts and another black hoodie that had a pink design on it. He finished it off with his nike socks and his orange crocs

Y - damn baby your such a good outfit picker

A - *laughs* shut up

I changed into the outfit alex gave me and put on my uggs since thats all I had right now. I put my hair in a messy bun then we walked to the kitchen

A - MAMA!

Am - IM IN MY ROOM!

A - WE ARE GONNA GO TO TARGET!

She came out of her room

Am - for what

A - to buy more shampoo and stuff

Am - ok be careful

We walked out and I felt my legs starting to hurt

Y - are we going in mine or your car

A - I don't know

Y - lets go in mine so I can put gas but you drive my legs are sore

A - ok

We got in my car and Alex drove to a gas station. I paid then got back in the car while he put the gas in. We took off to target and he gave me a piggy back ride in

Y - I need more film for my Polaroid

He put me down and I walked to the films. They were on the bottom and my legs hurt really bad so I crouched down. I forgot which one it was but I did have a picture on my phone. As I was scrolling through my phone I heard music. I looked over at Alex and he was making a tiktok. He started shuffling but I just ignored it cause at this point it was normal. I got the film then we started going to the shampoo aisle

A - should I get the more expensive one or the better smelling one

Y - I dont know

A - I'll get the more expensive one it still smells good

Y - whatever

I was taking pictures because I was bored. I started recording

Y - Alex

A - what

He bent down to grab something and I smacked his ass hard. He started laughing

A - what the fuck are you doing

Y - your so thick baby like god damn

A - I know right

Y - I just wanna

I started humpimg him but he ignored me

A - actually I'm gonna get this one

Y - ok im gonna end the video byeee

I ended it then posted it to my story with the caption target vlog

A - are you done harassing me

Y - yes unless you want me to keep going

A - no thanks

Y - fine

TBC🙊🙊🙊🙊

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