𝙱𝚒𝚐 𝙱𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚘𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝙽𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝙵𝚞𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗'

💗Don't you dare leave me💗

(Coma! Reader x Sad! Selever)

ANGST WARNING!!! If you dont wanna be sad, DONT READ!!!

Selever sighed sadly, walking into the room you were in. You were sadly in a coma, all because of him. You two got into a fight and he lost his cool and poof, a giant explosion and you lying unconscious on the floor. He hasn't been the same ever since. It's only been about 2 weeks since they informed him and his family that you were merely in a coma, but were lucky you survived. Selever's been hiding in his dark room, not daring to leave, not even for food. He eats very little now too. He only really eats when Ruv (his father of course) forces him to eat what's on his plate and watches him the whole time. He was just in a really depressing stage in his life right now. He wouldn't even talk to Ras anymore. He literally wouldn't leave his room. Almost killing you took a serious toll on him. After many hours of begging, Ras finally convinced their parents to take Sel to the hospital to see you, even if you couldn't technically see or hear him at the moment. She said it would help him if he could just vent/ apologize to you in person, in or out of consciousness. It could help in lots of ways, but that was the main one. They all told Sel they would give him a few minutes alone with you and then they would have to head back home. After he finally gathered up the courage to walk him and shut the door, he did and sat in the chair right next to where your face was near the bed. He looked down at your lying form and smiled a bit, seeing you lying their so peacefully. He ran his fingers through your hair and up and down the sides of your face, feeling what it felt like to touch you again. He missed when he would just randomly walk up to you and hug you and you would immediately turn around, engulfing him into the biggest hug imaginable. He chuckled at the memories before his happy expression dropped to sad again as the sound of the heart monitor's beeping dragged him out of his daydream. After a few moments of just playing with your hair, he finally started to talk to you. "H-hello Y/N." He stuttered, which was very unlike his since he was normally a very composed individual. "I um... I'm not really sure how to start this conversation. I've never really been one for this um.. feeling stuff." He started, still continuing to play with your hair. He felt a tear threaten to fall from his eye. He quickly brought up a hand to his eye and wiped it away. "I know you probably can't hear me and even if you can, you probably don't want to but um... Ras said this would help me somehow so um... here I am." He chuckled at the last part. It hurt seeing you like that, but he was still trying to not break down right away. "I'm ugh... I'm very sorry for everything. I don't know why I lost my cool like that. I had no reason to yet, here you are, in a hospital, lying unconscious in a coma, all because I can't control myself." He choked out, pulling his hand away from your hair and grabbing your hand. "If you were awake right now, you'd probably be telling some lies like it'll all be ok and it wasn't my fault... or maybe you'd be telling me to go away and that you'd never want to see me ever again. I would want to see me either." He sighed, looking at you. At this point, tears were slipping down his cheeks at a very slow pace, but they were still their. "If you're hearing this, I'm so very sorry. I would give anything in the world right now, just for you to be awake and ok." He continued, rubbing your hand in different ways, and feeling the tears fall down at a faster pace. "If I had to give my own life in order to save you, trust me, I would do it in a heartbeat. You don't deserve to be going through this right now." He sobbed, placing your hand on his cheek so he could feel your warmth against his face. "You're one of the most amazing human beings on the planet. I honestly don't see how you deal with me 24/7. I can barely deal with myself.... I don't deserve you." Selever finally stated. He leaned into your hand and let the tears keep rolling down his face. "I miss you so very much." He quivered, grabbing your hand even tighter. He couldn't hold it in anymore. He couldn't hold back his tears anymore. He placed your hand back down on the bed and buried his face into his own hands, trying to stay as silent as he could possibly be. After a few minutes, he calmed himself down a bit. He wrapped his hands around his chest and looked at you. "Heh, it's a good thing you can't hear me right now, isn't it? You'd never let me live down that I actually cried, even though I said it's for babies." He chuckled, watching your sleeping figure again. Watching as your chest rose and sank with every breath. "Who am I kidding? If it meant you would wake up from this and never have to go through this again, I'd gladly be called a baby till the end of time.... well maybe not gladly, but I'd take it, for you." He explained. "Wow, what have you turned me into? A mushy emotional ball of sadness. If i'd never met you, this probably never would've happened. I would have just accepted fate and went on, bothering random people and annoying my father." He took a deep, shaky breath, playing with your hair again. "I still remember the first day we met in high school. I couldn't believe I got paired with a 'nerd' for a project so I tried annoying the crap out of you, but instead of yelling at me and telling me to stop, you just laughed and said it was kinda cute. I never understood why, and I still don't. I still have to thank that teacher for pairing me with such an amazing person." He smiled, remembering that day like it was yesterday. He sighed. "Heh yea, we had no other classes so we would claim we had to go to the bathroom then just , meet up at the stairs and talk the whole rest of class. Yea, eventually Ras made me finally ask you out on a date. Luckily, you said yes, now we're... we're a couple and... I almost killed you."He went from being semi happy thinking about the past, to being a ball of sadness once more. "Hey, if you can hear me, do me a favor, alright? Please PLEASE, don't die on me. I can't live without you all my life. It's only been two weeks and I'm already falling apart. I know I can't wish for too much, like I can't wish for you to magically wake up and I can't wish for you to forgive me, but I do want you to make it through this. Just knowing your safe is enough for me to at least rest easy. Though this event will always leave me scarred for life, but as long as I know you alright and living your life to the best of your ability, that's enough for me." Sel explained. He knew you probably couldn't hear him, but he said it to you so it dropped a little weight from his body. He knew he at least put it out their so that was enough for him. He heard a gentle knock on the door. "Sel, father said it's time to go." He heard Ras whisper-shout through the door. "Alright, give me a minute!" He shouted back. He sighed and stood up. He hadn't even realized he had been rubbing your hands. Somehow he went from your hair to your hands. He chuckled and bent down, kissing your forehead and covering you all the way up with the hospital's thin blanket. He rubbed your hair out of your face one more time before turning away and walking to the door. Before he exited, he looked back and said, "Please wake up soon," He whimpered before opening the door and going out to join his family in the waiting room. Sarv was reading some weird magazine, Rasazy was playing with some kids building blocks they had for kids, and Ruv was scrolling through his phone doing who knows what. Ras was the first to notice he was their. "Hey brother, how did it go?" Ras asked, leaping up and standing in front of him. "It was... alright I guess." He responded. Ruv and Sarv both noticed them talking and stood up, ready to go. "Alright, let's get outta here before the cops find out I'm hereI'm here and we get banned from coming here." Ruv explained. They all nodded and started heading out. Sarv looked over at her son who was wiping away a tear from his eye. "Are you alright, Selever?" Sarv questioned her son. "Yea, just miss them is all." He responded. She nodded and placed a hand on his back, rubbing comforting circles. "How about you go and visit them a few times a week, just so it feels like you aren't missing from your life completely, you know?" Ras said. Sel nodded and sniffed a little. "Yea, that would be nice." They Finally made their way to the car. On the ride back, Sel fell asleep so when they got home, Ruv helped carry him to his room and tuck him in. "If only he knew." Ruv thought to himself, watching his son sleep. After a few seconds, he left Sel to sleep.

(Hehe, cliffhanger! I will only continue if someone asks for a part two also so hehe😈 I would just love to say I got this idea from a ASMR vid I randomly scrolled upon on Youtube so now I know when I lose insperation, just go to Youtube ASMR's lol. Also, as per usual, written within 3 hours so its 1:30 in the morning.... HBHYVHV! Anyway, hope I got you in your feels and wanting a part 2. Goodbye my lovely wolfs and see you guys in the next oneshot. Bye:D )