Restless, now
I run
Through the maze of my mind
Looking for the exit
Or entrance, mayhaps
And the ugly crow of a bird
And the humming of the air-con
The soundless tap of thumbs on the image of a keyboard
And the silence!
God, the silence
All threaten to drive me mad
Nails just this side of sharp enough to draw blood
Skin tingling still
Because walking into a fucking glass door
Wasn't enough to make
It
Stop.
Then I turn, again,
Surprise!
Room's the exact same as last you saw it
Two minutes ago
Was it always this dark?
Was it always this messy?
You remember you were supposed to clean your room today,
Was supposed to clean it for every day of the past week,
But really what's bodily hygiene to a good spot of existential dread?
Those steel strings haven't been touched in months,
You're still not even halfway through War and Peace,
Or King Lear, for that matter,
And why oh why are they so bloody long and so bloody wordy?
Why...
Good question, as good as any,
But how many were thinking when writing,
How many were thinking when reading,
And just how often is there a 'why'?
How often, why,
I've embraced my human nature as a broken record
Not too bad, really,
Almost fun,
Wonder if I will experience that in the company of agreeable persons tomorrow,
Desperately hope
Hope for what?
Back to the questions again
Endless questions
Long rambling questions with no answers
So we go back to the beginning
Running
Mind's maze.
YOU ARE READING
i tried: poems from a lost soul
PoetryA collection of sophisticated word vomit I puked up when I got bored. Updates whenever. Chapters ordered chronologically by date penned.