I suppose I should amend the phrase
"I don't have enemies" to
"I don't have enemies except when I'm in bed,
In which case anyone and everyone who tries to wake me up
Is the most hateful person on earth,
And I will increase my own suffering in order to do a truly shoddy job of spiting them."
I always said Pedro Pony was my spirit animal
But really, on the bad days,
I'm a turtoise:
The more you prod me the more I curl up
Retreat into my sleep
Reticent.
As colour bleeds out of my waking hours,
My night-time reveries grow increasingly vibrant,
Lively, larger than life.
Overshadowing, outshining -
My dreams are more interesting than the real world
So I burrow deeper
Escape into the land of never-ending curiosities
Away from mother's shrill calls and,
Worse
Her disappointment.
I can't see her looks of disappointment if I'm asleep
Busy dreaming up castles and princesses that weren't there when I was a child.
I'm eighteen. I can't be a princess anymore.
Missed my chance
So a plain, ugly, cowardly tortoise it is.
But maybe
Maybe
I'm just trying to protect myself
Like our good friend Esio Trot -
Yet what a heavy shell!
Insulating,
But blocks the view like nothing else
And could really do with some sunlight and fresh air.
Unfortunately, there is little room for much else,
So all I have left are dreams
And a tear-stained pillow case.
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i tried: poems from a lost soul
PoetryA collection of sophisticated word vomit I puked up when I got bored. Updates whenever. Chapters ordered chronologically by date penned.