scandals [czk]

f o u r t y f o u r

3 years later...

"they approved?" my heart is racing.

"they approved baby! we're going back to LA!" he crunches the paper with excitement as he runs towards me and pick me up. i grab his face and kiss him as he does.

"ahh! i'm gonna graduate! my family is already in LA, and trust me, you're gonna love them." my voice pitches.

"and you can finally meet my mom and sister. maybe even my step dad." he smiles.

"as long you're there with me," i frown. "i really thought i would be leaving next week without you."

"i would never leave you baby," he kisses me

shit. it was just a dream.

i get up, and drag my feet to the bathroom. the rims of blue around my eyes. i hate him so much.

my flight back to LA for graduation is in two days and don't wanna do anything. i don't want to go back and disappoint anyone. instead of valedictorian, it's just cum laude. but i get honors and recognition. i'm gonna miss milan and seoul, but it will be a story i'll tell in the future.

"come on lils, let's go out once more. it's our last time in milan. and i'm tired of comforting you here while you ball your eyes out." a friend from bocanni, maria walks into the bathroom and shake my shoulders. "anthony is a dick. he doesn't deserve you, and you're graduating."

"it was just a week ago! how dare he fucking cheat on me with that bitch. i swear if we were there again, i would yank on her long blonde fucking hair off him. we were just celebrating him coming with me to LA, and he decides to cheat on me the same fucking night. he took her to the same fucking hotel we were staying in!" i scream my raging heart out. my words describe my anger, sadness, and everything in between.

"lily, you just woke up," she slaps me to stop crying. "we're gonna go out today, and you're not gonna fucking cry. i am tired of buying facial tissues."

"but i loved him," i whale.

"but when we came back from dinner, it didn't look like he was loving you then," she folds her arms.

"you're not helping," i roll my eyes, while there's more tears forming on my lash line.

"but i did make you stop crying, now get ready," she checks herself out in the mirror as she pats my shoulder.

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"if only you told me about this sooner, i would've bought a ticket to LA," my roommate frowns.

"but you're coming next semester, promise. i have a room for you," i smile weakly.

"safe trip yea?" she wipes a tear.

"yea. and school is not that bad." i begin to tear up. i swear i have never cried so much in a week.

"okay, stop. go now," she sniffs as she joking shoos me away after hugging me.

"bye maria!" i turn back and wave.

anthony is still going to LA, but i don't know wether he's on the same flight. booking when you're still a couple sucks because there's a chance that when you book seats together, you're gonna sit next to them.