Ballad of an over thinker

Stuck in a trance

I feel as though I'm stuck in a trance

Like nothing is real anymore

I'm upset

But I have no tears left to cry

I'm happy

But I don't have the energy to make it last

I miss him

But I want to let him go

His memory still haunts me

But their gone as quickly as they come

It's like I'm stuck in a never ending cycle

And every turn I take to get out turns into another continuation

Every person I find turns out to be him

And it hurts

I want to be cold

But I want to find someone to love me

Someone I can love

But at the same time I couldn't bear to have it broken again

I want to disappear

But I want to stay

I'm stuck in a trance