ONE NIGHT STAND WITH MY BOSS

chapter 29

CHAPTER 29

Hazel POV

NASA labas ako ng bahay nag papahangin lang, si Grey nasa taas hindi ko alam Kong ano ang ginagawa.

Kamusta na kaya siya? Tanong ko sa aking sarili.

Mamimiss niya ba ako?

Hinahanap niya ba ako?

Kasal na ba sila ni Aslëy?

Yan ang mga Tanong ko sa aking isipan na hindi ko masagot sagot.

Bakit niya nagawa sakin yun? Bakit niya ako pinagtaksilan? Minahal niya baako? O pinaglaruan niya lang ako katulad sa ginawa niya sa mga babae niya.

Those actions, those words, those intimate times, did he really mean it? Did he really mean those things? O baka pinag laruan niya lang ako? What if it's all agame? What if he really don't love me? What if he just want to taste me until he lose his lust.

Fuck!

Putangna!

Bat baako nag paloko? Bakit ba ako naniwala? Bat ako nag nahulog sa gentle man moves niya at maamo niyang mukha eh desenyo naman siya.

What is happening to me what did I just do! Where did I go wrong? Where? Why do I have to feel this pain? Why me? Why?

Sigaw ko sa aking isipan at hindi ko namalayan at umiiyak na pala ako.

"Fuck u Lexus, Fuck u. I promise when we meet again--- No I mean I hope we never, NEVER  met again!" I shout... I look like a crazy lady shouting at the air..

What did you do to me Lexus? You said, you said you will protect me, you said u wont leave and YET here I am fucking alone, Here I am crying and thinking why did you do that to me? Why did u fucking forgot our promise to not give up on each other NO matter WHAT?

Why?! Fucking WHY?!

I shout in my head while my tears is falling from my eyes.. I cant help but to cry and cry...

I think it's  more better If I didnt saw him, if I didn't  met him, I think mom and dad was right all along... That love is dangerous and painful, that it will only hurt me in the end, that theres no happy ending like in fairytales...

That it's not like Cinderella who left her shoe in the castle and then poof, she GOT TRUE LOVE.. I mean who the fuck think of that? Thousands of people in that village but no one, literally no one fit their feet on that stupid glass fucking slipper.

So I see now, Love is not easy, love is challenging and painful... I wonder... what if... I marry that guy, what if I agree to marry that guy?

What if I didnt go against my father's will... what if I didn't fight for my rights? I think.... I think I will be happy right now, maybe I can learn to love him... Right?

No...I don't think straight right now, if I didnt fight for my rights I wont be independent and also I won't enjoy my life and freedom so i think i did the right thing...

If I didnt fight for my right, I wont experience being happy with someone I love, I... I.... i love him, i love him...

I love him, that i can fight every battle for hin but, but he choose to surrender and not fight along side with me.

"Hey." I heard a voice behind me, agad konaman pinahid ang luha ko and clear my throat.

"H-Hello." Sabi ko sabay piyok.

"What's  wrong are u crying again?" Sabi ni Grey at pinaharap ako.

"H-hindi no, na puwing  lang ako."pag sisinungaling ko at kinuskos kopa ang mata ko at para naman akong tanga na hinihangad na papaniwalaan niya ako.