I have set him free
It's better to have my heart shatter at a single slam rather than have it slowly be ground down to dust steadily one soft painful knock at a time.
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Still unedited ... So I am sorry 😢 for the mistakes. Spelling grammar an...
It was just a string of "Hmms" as if he wasn't even listening what I was saying before he gave a curt, "Ok" abruptly ending the call.
The level of apathy, and we are supposedly engaged. How on earth did grandpa even think that I would be ok with this man. I accept I am thoroughly pampered, but my parents have loved and shown it always.
Going from being constantly taken care of to being not even given a second thought about is jarring.
He is absolutely emotionless. How had I never noticed this before? Does he ail from the same thing Pei Shou Yie has? Is that syndrome real?
I am so confused. Yes, I need attention and affection. A little sympathy and sometimes molly coddling too. Is that too much to ask just because I'm a man. Or have I been turned a namby pampy by my parents over protectiveness as my uncle has claimed at one too many family gatherings. Should I harden myself like Hia? Constantly wear a poker face. Can I harden myself like that?
And it always comes back full circle to HIM!
Nope. Nope. Nope. No more. It's exclusive ME time tonight. I will enjoy myself doing what I love, am good at and am applauded for as well. With these thoughts in mind I pulled up the contact who could help lift my spirits.
📱 "... " "Hey P'Jay. Do you have a free slot open earlier tonight?"
"... " "Yes I'll take the happy hour mic."
"... " "I know I won't be paid. But I'll get the 2 free drinks, right?."
"... " "Yes I know nothing top shelf."
"... " "Yes, I promise I'll turn my keys over to P'Leo before I get on stage. Scouts honour"
"... " "Ok! See you in an hour."
As I got ready I received notifications for Gemini ♊️ club's IG stories informing followers that Kirrin was making a special appearance tonight with my pseudo Ig account tagged. Which I quickly reshared and watched as likes flowed in along with the shy 'see u there' to the flirty 'look out for the (cocktail) I sent that' messages from my ardent fans. This is what I need in my life. People who'll lift me up. Not people who make me question my very existence.
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"Oh! So he canceled tonight." Yi responded nodding his head as if some mystery had been resolved for him. "Now I know exactly why Diaow cancelled our date." Yi stated flatly as if it wasn't a surprising event. "And you are surprised after what happened Wednesday evening right here in this very office." He continues watching my face, I am confused by his statement so I nod. "Wow! Damn! Tell me, those vitamin supplements that you take, do they have an additive of 650 mg of stupid to ensure extra obliviousness to the obvious."
