I have set him free
It's better to have my heart shatter at a single slam rather than have it slowly be ground down to dust steadily one soft painful knock at a time.
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P'Jay is so good! Why couldn't I have fallen for him? But even if I did he'd already been with P'Leo since way back when. So a crush on him would have led nowhere.
All good men are quickly swept off the market. I wish I could have what they have. For all his outward stoicism P'Leo makes P'Jay his foremost priority in every and all situations.
Hia on the other hand ... Is it wrong to want his love? Is it wrong to want to be if not the top but atleast make it to the top five in his priority list.
I cannot cry here while I perform my set.
I cannot take it anymore I deserve respect too.
But most importantly how am I supposed to convince grandda to let me back out of this engagement?!
Hia you are a bastard!
Why don't you have a heart?
These thoughts keep circling in my head as I vent my anger for Hia on my drum set.
People's hoops hollers and cheers sooth my aching heart a little.
I know I have impressed them.
I see the groups of girls and guys watching me with stars in their eyes enamoured by me.
But they aren't the ones who's adoration I hunger for.
The owner of the pair of eyes I want on me isn't here and even if he was he would look right through me as if I was transparent.
A noisy bar isn't his scene anyway, he'd rather go to the opera.
His tongue would never soil itself with tap beer. He'd prefer an Argentinian Malbec with his medium rare sirloin 🥩 or a glass of chilled Pinot Gris with his Soy-Ginger Steamed Tilapia.
Finger foods are too low brow for him. He'd rather eat caviar on crackers.
His list of dos and donts rival grandda's! No wonder they get along like a house on fire!
I am so exhausted of hiding all that I love just to keep the peace in my family.
I've had enough of this life, hanging on to my sanity is tiresome.
I am sure that I'll definitely break one day and everything will just come out in an explosion; which'll leave pure devastation in its wake for the Keerati family.
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Limiting myself to three cocktails is so stupid! I don't have class tomorrow! I have absolutely nothing to do until tomorrow evening when I again have to show up here.
I am allowed to indulge myself once in a while! A couple of beers hurts no one anyway! It's past 10 and the DJ has taken over for the rest of the night.
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P'Jay is being an absolute mother hen!
Thank Goodness P'Leo is there to remind him I'm no longer a minor.
A couple or five shots of Casamigos never hurt anyone!
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