If I'm wrong, I am right / Severus Snape x reader

i know it's over - still I cling

(song: I know it's over by the smiths, no proofread)

Suddenly all was clear, everything made perfect sense. How could you be so dumb and not see it? Today, is the 9th January, his birthday. Usually there are still holidays at this time but this year was (obviously) an exception. He was alone at his birthday and didn't even told you in the fight. You forgot it. He knows you forgot it.

She's not with him. What kind of wife leaves his husband alone on his birthday? Still, you were so unbelievably angry at him for all the thing he'd done, what positions he put you in.

The corridors were almost empty when you walked by , which wasn't surprising on a cold day in january. You were mad at him but leaving him alone on his birthday wasn't an option not in his condition. On the other hand, he would probably tell you to leave him alone and never come to his chambers again. He would get angry at you and say probably more hurtful things or he let you in out of insight or solitude. Loneliness makes people do the craziest things but does it go so far that you "betray" your wife?

You sat down on the bed and looked out the window in the direction of the forest. It was worth a try and there was the next problem, of course you had no present. There was this book which was intended as a Christmas present but you read and annotated it. Maybe he would still like it you said to yourself quietly.

The next class was defence against the dark arts in about 40 minutes that wasn't a lot of time but it has to be enough. On the way to the dungeons you almost ran into Professor Lupin.

He smiled, touched your shoulder in a fatherly way and said ,,Look better on your way next time.See you in class."

,,Sorry Professor."

,,No need to apologize." he answered as you walked on quickly.

First you went to the classroom to see if he's still there - which he wasn't, so you went on.
After you've walked all the corridors and corners it was just a little longer to his chambers when a voice rang out.
It was her voice - yelling of course.

,,You must be kidding me Severus. No , I don't want to hear one more thing. Please , just leave it. "

A door opened. Steps. Quick steps. You hid behind a stature as she passed. After a few minutes that you fought with yourself if you really should go to him - the decision was made when your feet went in the direction of his rooms

,, Severus?" you said carefully.

,,Who's there?"

,,It's me, y/n." The door opened. He must have been crying and it smelled of alcohol.

,,What do you want?" he said and trying to sound strictly which didn't work really well.

,,C-can I please come in."

,,Y/n i-"

,, Please."

,,Fine." he answered and took a step to the side. The room looked nothing like the last time you were here. All was messy as one was used to from him, but instead of books or empty cups on the bedside table there were empty bottles of whiskey - many of them.

,,Do you have any other classes today?" was the first thing you said.

,,No, and if that's the only thing you need-"

,,It's not." He sat down on his desk again and finished his glas.

,, It's your birthday."

He looked shocked. After all the terrible things he did and said were you there anyway.

,,Yes, but I don't care about it. I really don't." You could tell immediately that's a lie. His voice trembled and sounded implausible.

,,I see how much you don't care about it."

,,What do you want y/n?"

,,I am here because I was afraid that you would be bad or worse than before.My fears are obviously not unfounded." He got up and stumbled over to you on the sofa.

,,I don't care about my birthday it's because of -"

,,Her" you finished. ,,Listen, I don't have much time left before my next class starts but I'll come back."

You reach into your pocket to look for the book. ,,It's not much." you said before you gave him the book.

,,You bought me a present?" he sounded so sad, like really can't understand why someone would actually care for him and get him a present.

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The classes seemed to find no end. Every minute you did you look at the clock in the hope that more time would have passed.
All the student worked highly concentrated on their tasks but that was impossible for you today. Normally it wasn't a problem but today it was different, all of your thoughts revolve around Severus who is hopefully still in his room.

,,Class dismissed." said Lupin finally.

You never packed up your bag so quickly before but you decided to way a bit ( which was very hard) before you go to him in order not to risk that someone might see you.

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,,Severus, are you still here?" No answer.

Carefully you entered the room. It was quiet but the fire was still on which meant he must be here. You closed the door and looked around the living room - empty. He wasn't sitting on the sofa or at the desk so you went to the bedroom.

There he was, sleeping still in his clothes with a bottle of whiskey and the book you gave him on his chest. Before you entered the room you wondered if you should let him sleep, but that would mean he might think you weren't there and might have forgotten to come back.

,, Severus." you said and gently shook his shoulder. He immediately woke up and a gasp escaped from his lips.

,,I said I would come back."

,,You did. I really like the book you gave me. Thank you."

,,Of course." you sat down on his bed, next to him and reached out your right hand to catch the bottle he' was still holding.

,,You shouldn't drink y/n."

,,Neither should you." And then you took a few sips before he tore the now almost empty bottle from your hand. He drank the rest.

,,I am your friend , and friends are supposed to be always completely honest with each other,"

,,What are you saying?"