𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮/ 𝓝𝓲𝓴𝓴𝓲 𝓢𝓲𝔁𝔁

*∙𝙱𝚊𝚋𝚢 𝙽𝚎𝚒𝚕2.....∙*

( hey everyone! I'm finally going to write more chapters. I still don't have full time for this but I'll try my best. Love ya all<3)

Nikkis pov:
As I was walking on the pavement I was thinking about what I'll do about Jane. I fucked up pretty bad didnt I? Goddamn Nikki think of something special!

I got home and as soon as I unlocked the door I hear a loud thud in the upstairs bathroom.

"Jane!" I yell in the living room. I went upstairs and saw that the light wasn't turned on so I stepped in the bedroom but still no sight of jane.

"Janie." I say softly going back to the bathroom door slowly opening it
There she was. On the floor. It took me a while to notice that she was bleeding. A cut on her wrist. Did she try to kill herself?

"Jane!" I yell as soon as I noticed the bloody hand

"Ah fuck! Fuck!" I yell under my breath

I rubbed downstairs and called Tommy.

"Tommy! Quick.... come..... jane!" I try to say trough sobs

*sixx I have no idea what you're saying. What's wrong is everything alright?* Tommy asks on the other side of the phone

"N-no. Jane s-she c-cut her-self!" I cry

*what?!*he yells before adding *im coming right now! Call the ambulance!* he says before hanging up

I called the ambulance just as Tommy barged trough the door. Good thing he loves only a few houses down the street.

"Did you call the ambulance?!" He asked shocked as I nodded

"Oh sixx I swear to god if this was because of you I will but those skimmy legs of youres around youre neck and choke you with them!" He says pacing around the room nervously
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Jane's pov:
"Men who the fuck needs them?! They're just a waste of fucking time!" I say under my breath as i silently cry while driving home

"Hey Beth you can go home for tonight. Thank you for coming on such short notice." I tell her

"Oh it's alright don't worry about it. But you as I see my dear are not alright. Ok go on tell me what happened." She says gesturing me too sure down with her

"It's nothing just Nikki again." I say fiddling with my fingers

"What did he do?" She asked

"He just said something I didn't like." I reply

"Such as?"

"Well he was arguing with Tommy and then Sharises baby started crying and then I started yelling at Nikki and then he said *well do something about the baby or did you forget how to be a mother just because you can't have kids anymore*" I say mocking Nikki

"Ok I'm sorry for saying this but what the actual fuck is wrong with him sometimes?" She asks

"Not offended haha and I don't know he's really weird isn't he." I say back

After some time of silence Beth broke the silence

"Well then if you don't need me anymore I'm off. I'll see you around alright. If you need me just call. Bye!" She says while grabbing her stuff before walking out the door

"Bye!" I yell back before going to my bedroom

"Hey baby." I say holding gabby with tears in my eyes

"You know you're my only possession in this whole world. I love you so much baby girl but daddy will take better care of you. You're mommy is obviously not doing a good job." I manage to choke out. After I cuddled with baby gabby I went to write a letter for Nikki when he comes home

Dear Nikki!

I've been asking myself. Was I never enough for you? Never got the answer. You'll never tell me though. My whole life ive been having weird thoughts. Suicide. Never tried it.

I guess this time will be my first. I know we have a child but... just like you have said I have forgotten how to be a mother. Or have I? Don't worry I'll be looking out for you and baby gabby from heaven or hell. I'm not sure where I'll go. You tell me you've died once. How was it? Heaven or hell?!

Xx Jane</3

That was my suicide note. Too much? I don't care he'll learn his lesson. I taped it to the bathroom shower door so he'll notice it.

I took a knife from the kitchen making it sharp. At first I had second thoughts but then*slice* I made a cut on my wrist. It hurt at first but when I lost some blood it felt numb. I slid down to the tile floor sitting there till I passed out.

Nikkis pov:

"Tommy you go with her I have to take pack a bag and call Beth!" I yell from the bedroom

"Alright see ya man!" He shouts back

Why the fuck did she do it?! I can't believe her sometimes. As I was packing some clothes I went back to the bathroom to get her toothbrush and some shampoo and soap as I saw something taped on the shower door.

Dear Nikki!

I've been asking myself. Was I never enough for you? Never got the answer. You'll never tell me though. My whole life ive been having weird thoughts. Suicide. Never tried it.

I guess this time will be my first. I know we have a child but... just like you have said I have forgotten how to be a mother. Or have I? Don't worry I'll be looking out for you and baby gabby from heaven or hell. I'm not sure where I'll go. You tell me you've died once. How was it? Heaven or hell?!

Xx Jane</3

A suicide note. Oh my god she wanted to kill her self. But there's a chance dad she may did god knows how long she was passed out. I put the note in my pocket as tears roll down my cheeks. I finished packing and got gabby then speed to the hospital.
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"Tommy!" I say as I come up to where he's standing at the hospital

"Hey man." He says back looking at me

"How is she?" I ask

"Well the doctors said she's extremely lucky." He replies with a sigh

"It's all my fault Tom." I say as I stare at her trough the glass window

"Nah man it's no-" he starts but I cut him off

"She wanted to kill herself." I say coldly

"W-what?" He asks

"She wrote a suicide note right before cutting herself." I say as I give him the note form my pocket

"Oh god." He says as he finishes reading

"I hate to admit it but yeah you're right man it is you're fault." He says

Yeah. I know it is my fault. She's everything I've ever wanted. She gave me the best child I've ever seen. It's a shame we will only have the one but for now she's my little Princess. They both are. And I fucked it all upz. If Jane dies. I'm literally killi myself.