Listen to What?

Part 14 || "why?"

Heeseung's POV

Heeseung: "why haven't you been responding to me?!" She looked confused "I updated you the whole day and not one response"

Hana: "why were you updating me about Bianca? You're with her, spend time with her, why are you texting me?!" Right, why was I texting her? Why was Hana on my mind when Bianca was right in front of me

Heeseung: "is it wrong to text you?!" I raised my voice at her which caused her to be quiet. I shouldn't have said it like that

Heeseung: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. I guess I just missed you. I've been hanging out with her lately and I miss our fun"

Hana's POV

My heart started beating fast and my face heated up. He went close to me and hugged me. He held the back of my head and sighed for a long time. I can sense him smelling me and his face went to my ear

Heeseung: "you're my rest Hana, I don't want you going anywhere" he whispered to me and lifted me up a bit and hugged me tighter. I sighed and closed my eyes wrapping my arms around him.

Hana: "you too Heeseung" I miss him. I don't want to lose him. We pulled apart and he looked at me

Heeseung's POV

Heeseung: "so why was he hugging you like that? It looked like you guys were a couple or something" after saying that I realized I sounded jealous. She hesitated thinking about something

Hana: "uhm actually... he confessed to me a while ago" my eyes widened, he did what?

Heeseung: "what?!"

Hana: "he asked if he could court me and I said yes" she moved past me as if that sentence she just said was normal and didn't need clarification

Heeseung: "you're saying he has romantic feelings for you?" She brought a water bottle out of the fridge to drink

Hana: "yeah, as in he wants to be bf and gf but for now he'll court me since I didn't know what to say and he doesn't want to rush into anything" Sunghoon courting her? That can't happen.

Heeseung: "no! He can't court you" she looked at me confused

Hana: "and why not?" I couldn't answer, well I didn't have an answer. Because I didn't want to? That's not a valid reason. He hasn't done anything wrong so there shouldn't be a problem. But I'm just bothered by the idea of him courting her. I should be supportive, she was supportive with Bianca

Heeseung: "sorry, I was just being protective. You know I love you. I just don't want him to hurt you" she sighed

Hana: "you love me?" My stomach made that same pit feeling. She asked that in a tone as if it wasn't the usual 'love' we say to each other. Did I want it to be another kind?

Heeseung: "you're my best friend, of course I do"

Hana: "would you just stop fucking saying that!" I heard her mumble.

Hana's POV

Every time he says that he confuses me! It's so annoying! I can't get my feelings straight. He is so fucking blind!

Heeseung: "saying what?" Shit he heard me

Hana: "nothing"

Heeseung: "no, you said something. What's wrong with me saying I love you? We've said it since we were kids, what difference does it make now?!" His words hurt me. My mouth parted and tears filled my eyes. I looked at him in disbelief

Hana: "I know that! Ok!"

Heeseung: "then why are you so mad?!" I can't say the real reason

Hana: "I want to know why you think Sunghoon would hurt me"

Heeseung: "I didn't say he will, I'm just being careful. You've known him for a few months!"

Hana: "so I have to know someone for a long time for them to court me? Someone like you?!" He seemed shocked with my response. Like he just realized something. I can't just say things like that!

Heeseung: "look, I'm just protecting you"

Hana: "well, you can stop!" I ran upstairs and slammed my door. Heeseung came running and I could hear him trying to open my door. The more he protects me the more my feelings grow. He cares for me, but not the way I want. He cares for me as a friend. But he keeps confusing me and I just want it to stop.

Heeseung's POV

Heeseung: "Hana! Open the door, let's talk please?" I hate it when we fight. It feels like I'm about to lose everything.

Hana: "GET THE FUCK AWAY!" She yelled so loud even I was scared. She never yelled at me like that. It sounds like someone crying for help. I hate this feeling.

"Hey, why'd you just suddenly leave? Was there an emergency?"

Bianca texted me. I thought something was wrong with Hana when she wasn't responding to my texts a while ago so I ran to her house worried. I replied to her saying a family emergency came up. Hana is family. She's everything. She's someone you don't want to lose. A friend you never want to lose.

It went quiet inside and I just thought I shouldn't bother her. Why did I cross the line? Why was I so mad about the whole Sunghoon thing?

He's a good guy, I even suggested them to like each other. But now it's really happening, I don't like it. If they do get together, Hana's gonna start spending more time with him. When she's sad, I'm not the person she'll be calling. When she's bored, I'm not the person she'll be spam texting. She won't run under the rain with me anymore. It won't be me.

I touched my face and, I'm crying? Why am I crying? I've had this heavy feeling ever since Sunghoon started getting close with her. He's annoying.

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Hi so my wrist has been having some problems and I can't type properly. I can but it hurts. I'll still try to update like I always do, just please excuse if it's later than usual ☺️