Tae was at the bar waiting on a drink when Kate walked in. He glanced at her and saw how distraught she was. A complete mess. Mascara streaks down her face. He wasn't for sure what had happened, but it had to involve Gyu. And even though he never cared for the likes of her he somehow felt sorry for her. Kate called out to Stan, the owner of the club. He had been busy filling in as bartender since the help was a no show. She announced, "I'm calling it a night. I may be back.
Maybe not. Home is looking pretty good right now." Tae looked her head on. His eyes widened. Home? Where was home? What happened? He wanted to ask.
Wanted to know. Did something happen between her
and Gyu....finally? Curiosity was eating him alive. This
beauty has finally been knocked off her pedestal.
Good riddance to you, Katelyn Blue. He wanted her
gone, out of their life, and yet on the other hand he
was feeling quite guilty. Guilty because he had prayed
for this moment. Guilty because he fought behind the
scenes to bring this moment to a rise. Guilty for her
tear-stained face. Guilty for breaking up this roller
coaster love triangle. If she was leaving, leaving Daegu
for good, does his friends know? Or was this a sudden
decision on her part? Stan sat Tae's drink in front of
him, "Kate, your band needs you tonight. Stick it out.
I'm not sure what went on on your break, but push
through this, and get your ass on that stage. You're
one of my best employees and I can't afford to lose
you." Kate shook her head, "Not tonight, Stan. Tonight I need be alone." Tae accidentally brushed against her
when he reached for his drink. Kate turned sad eyes on
him. She sneered when she realized who was beside
her, "Ugh. Are you happy now? Good night, Stan." She
walked out the door not looking back.I stared at the ring in my hand, cursing myself. What the hell did I just do!? Here, burning in my palm, rested my whole life. My universe. My everything. The bagettes, the 2 carat heart shaped diamond.
And I just threw it all away. Pissing it all. Based on words and feelings. I felt too much. I cared too much. I loved her too much. I was so in love with Kitty Kate. She'd been the one. The only. Plain and simple. I never dated anyone else. Never tested the waters outside of her. Well, except that one time, but I did that out of spite. Just to get back out her for rubbing her little rendezvous with Junnie in my face. And even then I only wanted to be with her. We are soulmates. Always had been. Kate and I shared too memories. Through all of our ups and downs, we always found a way to hold on. To never let go. But I did. I started losing hope in her, in me, and in us. And she was right. I am running. Running from it all. I'd been running since we came back from the lodge.Running scared. Scared of commitment. Scared that she'd never love me after being with Junnie. Scared of never having what I lost with her the day Soobin stripped it all away. I thought by asking Kate to marry me it would somehow heal me and us from her sordid affair with Junnie, but it only seemed to agitate it more. Then Soobin came along took my life in one night. I gazed up at the night sky and hollered at the stars. The stars once used to take pictures of and wish on. So much for happy endings.I heard the door open and Kate breezed by. She was still so upset she stumbled in her steps, almost falling. I heard her curse under her breath. I almost wanted to laugh. Kate was always clumsy. But my heart hurt too much to even a muffle up a chuckle. Where was she going? And how was she getting there? She took off down the pathway that led to her old apartment. I pushed away from the wall and followed in her footsteps. There was no way I was letting her walk around in the dark. We may have just broken up, but I still had feelings for her, very deep feelings. Kate suddenly came to a halt hearing the crunching of rocks behind her. She turned around and we were face to face. She brushed away a falling tear with a quick swipe of her fingertips. Shaking her heading she asked, "Haven't you done enough? Just leave me alone, Cookie. I don't need you breathing down my neck after ripping the rug out from under me." I stared her blankly, "Kate, please don't go. It just seemed like the only way. To make things easier for both of us. To save you from all of this." Her hands flew to her hips and she gasped, "To save me? Cookie, what's that supposed to mean? All I ever wanted was to be smothered in you. All these years I've spent thinking of you. Of us. If there'd ever be an us. I cherish all of times together. The way you would tease me and flirt with me. Your cute like aegyo's towards me. The way you showed you cared even though you were terrified to face what was standing in front of you. Ever since that day in the park, the moment you opened your front door, I was consumed by you. I wanted so badly to be a part of your world. To walk where you walk. To taste what you taste. To love what you love, Cookie. I fell so hard for you. I fall everyday still. Even after all this...I'm still falling. Don't say you're trying to save me. Maybe I don't want to be saved. Just let me fall. Let me hurt. Let me be." Then she turned to walk away from me. I quickly reached out and grabbed her by the waist, spinning her back to me. Her body collided against me. I grunted and she squealed. It was a perfect fit. Always had been. I absolutely enjoyed the way her body felt pressed against mine. And she smelled so divine. So yummy. So sweet. So vanilla. My favorite. She pleaded with tears brimming in her eyes, "Cookie, don't do this. You can't end it and break my heart, and except me to think this is ok. I need time to process all this. To get over you." She squirmed out of my arms and pushed me away, "Just don't." That crushed me. We had always been two people who could fight and argue, but we always found our way back. Maybe I had done more damage than I realized this time. My head dropped to my chest. I didn't want her walking out of my life. I didn't want to go back to Seoul not knowing if she'd still be here for me. I casually closed my eyes and felt the tear I'd been holding back fall. It dropped to the concrete. My Kitty Kate and I were over. Through. Done. I needed to accept that. Swallow the damage I'd done. If she ended up with Junnie, I only had myself to blame. If Junnie catches wind of what I've done, he'd curse me for breaking her heart...again. I lifted my head, puckered my lips only to find she was gone. I wanted to chase after her. Tell her I was sorry. Tell her I made a mistake. A horrible mistake. Tell her I still loved her. But like a coward I only stood there unable to move. Letting the agony of it all swallow me whole. I dragged myself back into the club and rejoined my friends at the table in front of the stage. Oh well if they saw the tracks of my tears. Oh well if they saw my red and swollen eyes. I just didn't care. I'd fucked up and now I have to live with it. Eyes turned on me as I filled my seat, but no one said a word. Suddenly, out of the blue, Kate's brother, Jin, was standing in front of me. He asked me where Kate was. I only shrugged and stated icily that I didn't know and I wasn't her keeper. I was too hurt to care how cold I sounded. I hated myself at the moment. I couldn't take back what I'd done. I heard Kai gasp, "Gyu, what the hell?" I turned narrowed eyes to my best friend. I was in no mood to explain anything to him. He was the last person I wanted to know what a fool I'd been. Little did I know the rumor had already hit the table. I could hear Tae mumbling to Junnie and Soobin's eyes grew big. Jin asked me again, "Where is my sister?" His friend, Junseo, Kate's admirer and guitarist of the band, walked up, "What's going on? Kate should've been back from the break." Jin leaned across the table grabbing a handful of the front of shirt, "Gyu, you better start talking. I saw her go out after you. I'm only going to ask you this one more time. Where is my god damn sister?" I froze. How the hell was I going to explain to him that Kate may be leaving to go home to the states? That I broke off our engagement. That there will be no wedding. That I not only ended us, but broke her altogether. He'd literally kill me. Simply because this was not me. Not who I am. I couldn't breathe. I felt like was suffocating. Kai nudged the upper part of my arm, "Dude, say something. Where's Kate?" At that moment I heard the sound of Kate's shoes. Her happy go lucky self announced as she approached the stage, "The show must go on." She casts her green eyes on me and with a payback grin on her face I knew I was doomed. I was fixing to burn for my actions.
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Eternally Yours
FanfictionDaegu, Korea. One girl. Two guys. One group. Book 1 (Gyu's story) Follow along with the ups and downs perils of Beomgyu Choi's love for his longtime sweetheart, Katelyn Blue, and the twist and turns she brings in the life of TXT. One look, one tou...