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Semaji || 1 month later
It's been a month in New York and I'm finally doing better, I wouldn't say I was all better but I'm okay.
I started writing down my feelings and thought and it rlly helped, tay came up with that idea actually.
After a week or 2 I started talking to my family and friends I had to get back to my life, the world couldn't stop just because of death. It never will stop.
Everything was slowly coming together, I'll never fully be okay but I'll just have to settle for what I get.
Today was the day I went and visited my dad grave.
This was a very big step for me.
And We were moving out new York and back to Chicago.
I loved being in New York and maybe later on in life I'll come back.
Raymond drove and I got on Instagram
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Traphousesemaji: it was never the end of my story just a chapter . 🦋❕
KaylahK: baddest they could never🥰
Tayfrmdaway: 😍😍
Tooprettyrain: miss you 😘
1kmond: ❤
Daydaythename: 🗣
Millymay: my baby😘
After hours of driving we pulled up to the grave yard and I put my phone away.
"You ready" mond asked and I nodded. This is the ready I'll ever be.
"I'll wait in the car so u can have your privacy"
"Finally" I laughed and he rolled his eyes laughing.
I got out the car and walked for like 2 minutes trying to find his grave site and I finally found it and I sat on the grass.
"HI daddy, I'm sorry I didn't come sooner, I miss you ever day" I felt tears coming out.
"I been learning how to deal, how to be okay, I know u wouldn't want me how I was I knew I had to better myself so I went to newyork and I went to that place we always go to watch the ball drop and it was so pretty without seeing the ball drop" I laughed.
"And I moved into that apartment place u said u always wanted to move into to, it's not so bad actually they fixed it up more, Raymond got me a necklace with ur name on it and I literally haven't took it off, I'm glad that ur in a happy place and not suffering, u deserve the happiness daddy" I put my hand on his grave stone and I got up and walked away.
This was what I needed, I needed to let it out, this was my finally step, and it felt so good.
