"Okay tell me more stories" I say laying my hand over Bucky's hand and take another swing from what looks like the 5th bottle of whiskey "we were on that mission and I thought it would've been sweet if I made breakfast, while having absolutely no experience on cooking. You hearing this mess grabs your dagger and runs downstairs expecting to see danger or something, instead you see me in a messy kitchen covered in flour and what i thought was pancake batter" Bucky says in between laughs making me laugh harder "so we had a lot of fun?" I ask and he nods "This mission is when I found out about you and Steve, at this point you guys weren't even doing anything anymore. I knew that it wasn't a competition, I just needed to prove that I wasn't the person everyone thought I was" Bucky says "by the looks of it I don't think it ever was a competition, from everything Venom told me. It seems to me that Steve and I were just friends who um you know for a little while. But you and I there was more than that, specially how much patience I had with your temper" I joke making Bucky laugh
"It scared me when you came back, you've been with Steve a lot more than you have spent with me lately. I um heard the conversation you had in the training room, not on purpose, I promise. I just, I was looking for you and then I couldn't walk away. I know he makes you feel good, he always has, he never stressed you out or drove you insane over the same thing. We said I love you for the first time during an argument" Bucky rants "despite your flaws I chose to be with you, that means that it didn't matter what I felt for Steve because what I felt for you was always stronger. It's why Steve and I remained friends, Venom tells me I couldn't even be in the same room with you without my body practically catching on fire" I say with a laugh "and I know that my mind doesn't remember but my body does Bucky, my heart races and my skin feels like it's flaring up when you touch me or when you look into my eyes" I whisper "and it's driving me insane that I can't remember" I say
"You don't have to remember, I'm okay with that. I told you last night that we can just make more memories and I meant it" Bucky says, he's looking into my eyes and that usual sad look seems to be fading away and being replaced by hope "I'm glad" I say "want to get breakfast?" He asks and I nod "I should probably stop drinking" I say with a laugh, Bucky laughs but nods agreeing. We head out of the party room making our way to the dinning room where the rest of the avengers sat together "where have the two of you snuck off to?" Steve asks "well we were drinking" I say with a laugh "a little more than expected" Bucky adds also laughing "since you left yesterday?" Natasha asks and I nod "Bucky was telling me some stories about how things were" I say taking a seat next to Steve "seems like we were amazing friends" I say with a smile "We were" Steve adds
"I have news" Bruce says barging into the room, all eyes are on him "everyone we need to gather in the meeting room" Bruce says looking at me, we finish breakfast and instantly head to the meeting room where Bruce stands at the front "as you all know, I have been trying to find a way to get the bullets out of Angelina" Bruce says, we all nod along "every single time I would use a simulation she would die. Except for one" Bruce says "we have to take Venom out of you for the surgery" Bruce says "absolutely not" venom and I say in unison, Venom shows himself "I leave her body and she instantly dies" Venom says "I am not taking that risk" he says "I will hook her up onto machines that will keep her heart beating and her lungs working, you're healing her too fast during the surgery which would automatically make me have to keep cutting until she loses more blood than she can handle. During every simulation where you were out of her body, she lived" Bruce explains, everyone is now staring at me wanting for an answer
"Can we at least talk about this?" I ask Venom "no" Venom adds "you with no memories is better than not having you at all" Venom adds and I sigh "This may be our only chance to live freely, without hydra having power over us" I say "or you could die, I thought we weren't willing to play with your life that way" Venom growls "I'm not going to die, Bruce will bring me back" I say cupping his face "trust me V" I say, he growls at me "fine" he says and disappears "when can we do this?" I ask "tonight, once you've sobered up. Also don't eat until then" Bruce says and I nod "I will get things ready" Bruce says and I nod, the meeting rooms empties out but I remain seated "meet me at the roof at 7 tonight" Steve says and I frown "Okay" i say, he smiles and walks away
I remain in my room until 7 when I'm meant to meet Steve "Steve?" I call walking out onto the roof, the sun has just set and the sky is beginning to fill up with stars "it's beautiful isn't it?" Steve asks and I nod "I brought you here after a party, you loved this place. We used to come up here all the time to talk and to escape reality for a little while" Steve says "I know about this place" I say with a little smile "Venom told you?" Steve asks and I nod "are you worried about the surgery?" Steve asks "how can I not be" I say with a little laugh "it will be okay" Steve adds and I nod "I shouldn't stay up here for too long, I'm sure Bruce will be looking for me soon" I say "I know" Steve says "I've been back for a little while now, how comes you never brought me up here? Why today?" I ask "because I just expected you to go running back to Bucky" Steve replies "I can't go running back to a person I don't remember" I say
"I told him today, that my body knows what it once felt for him. Just like it knows what it felt for you" I say "and what does it feel?" Steve asks "Steve" I whisper "I just want to know" Steve says and I sigh "my heart goes crazy every time you touch me and my skin practically ignites" I say "Bucky heard our conversation in the training room" I say "I know, he told me. He also told me that regardless of your choice, things won't get bad again. He knows you're in a very confusing place right now" Steve says and I sigh "I just keep thinking back to how it was, I mean I chose him then. There's gotta be a reason right?" I ask "you didn't want to lose either of us, me and you were more than just sex. You two weren't, if you chose me you would lose him" Steve says and I sigh "sounds like someone comes out hurt no matter what happens" I add, I look at my watch marking 8pm "I should probably go" I say while turning away
"You know I hated that I fell for you at the same time he did, it made me feel so guilty. You know he deserves happiness after everything he's been through" Steve blurts out, I turn around again to face him "but if I'm going to feel guilty for falling for you then I might as well feel guilty for this" Steve says before pulling me into a long and deep kiss, I practically melt in his touch "maybe Bruce can wait" I whisper against Steve's lips, we lay down on the floor not breaking our kiss
A couple of hours later
I quickly put my clothes on and look at Steve "you don't seem guilty" I joke "is it so bad that I'm not?" Steve asks "is it bad that I'm not?" I repeat his question "not at all" Steve replies before pulling me into another kiss "I really got to go this time" I say and Steve nods as he watches me run away "well I didn't expect this to happen" Venom adds "me neither" I say breathless as I walk into the lab "just in time" Bruce says and I nod "yeah" I say with a smile, he hands me the hospital gown and turns around so I can change into it. I sit on the surgical table "I'm going to put you under now okay?" Bruce asks and I nod "I'll see you on the other side doc" I say with a smile
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Broken // The Avengers
FanfictionAfter being kidnapped and experimented on for 15 years, Angelina Romanoff is sent to a psychiatric facility where she is finally found by her sister.
