Broken // The Avengers

Chapter 30

I open my eyes slowly, the bright lights practically burning my eyes "she's awake" Bruce whispers, I look around the lab to see Steve, Bucky, Natasha, Wanda and Peter standing around clearly waiting for me to wake up "I'm alive" I say with a laugh while sitting up "welcome back to the world of the living" Venom whispers "thanks V" I reply "so is it out?" I ask "right here" Bruce shows me the bullets "nasty little things aren't they" I complain while scrunching my nose "coffee?" Wanda asks while handing me a mug "thanks" I say, they're all staring at me "what is it? Do I have something on my face?" I ask "I mean I know I have a metal arm now but that's old news, kind of like Steve" I joke and Steve rolls his eyes "the answer is no, it's just plain old or um new me. No memories" I say "we are just glad you're alive" Bucky adds squeezing my hand, I give them all a smile

"Natasha are you crying?" I ask seeing the tears pool inside her eyes "I'm just happy you're okay" she whispers and I smile "so now that I am fully healed and have my own mind back, I am going to go have a shower and change into something more flattering" I say cringing at the hospital gown "you do that" Steve adds "that gown does nothing for your ass" Bucky jokes "You're just mad because I look better with a metal arm than you ever did honey" I joke while walking away "you wish" Bucky yells "are you going to tell him?" Venom asks "tell him what exactly?" I ask "that you and Steve slept together before your surgery" Venom replies "he's waiting for you to remember him and you went off with Steve, the ONLY person he was always paranoid of" Venom continues "don't you think that's exactly why I shouldn't tell him V?" I ask

"I think that you're accidentally reliving the life you did when you arrived"

"Is that so bad?"

"Yes it is"

"Why"

"Because these guys have feelings for you, it's not like it was when you three knew it was just that. You may not remember but you loved them both too, this tug of war game you're playing is going to hurt the two most honest and caring people you met here"

"Do you think I should tell him?"

"No, I just think you shouldn't do it again. Not unless you decide to pursue only that person"

"And everyone is expecting me to choose Bucky?"

"I guess so"

I groan walking into my room "was it this difficult when I remembered?" I ask "it was worse because back then you really knew both of them" Venom says "I know what I said to Bucky, about making new memories but Steve has been so great to me since I got here. There was no pity and no forced hope I would wake up who I once was, he accepted me for who I am and even helped me try to adapt to this stupid thing" I say putting up my arm "I guess you just have to take it easy for now, don't make any irrational decisions" Venom says and I just groan, I continue to ignore Venoms constant ranting about the mistakes I am making in my head like he is so used to doing "Venom?" I ask

"I am just saying, you wouldn't want to be where they are right now. I know how hard it is they are delicious, I could just eat them. Or ride in a convertible into the sunset while the wind blew through my hair" Venom continues "first of all, you have no hair. You are bald. Second, I am not going to make any decisions based on a week okay? I slept with Steve yea because it just felt familiar and I feel incredibly confused with everything and he's the only one who's made it easy for me here. I will not do it again, I will not sleep with Bucky either. I am going to start over with them both and see where life leads us. Now can I offer some melted chocolate in return for some freaking silence?" I ask "yes" Venom replies, I walk out of my room laughing at how easy it is to bribe Venom causing me to walk into someone and almost fall over but Steve grabs my hand pulling me back "you have got to stop falling" Steve jokes "did I do this a lot?" I ask

"So many times I thought you started bumping into me just so I could do this" Steve says pulling me closer to his chest "well maybe I was" I whisper, Steve let's out a small chuckle "I was going to grab some coffee, at that little place that Venom loves. You want to join?" Steve asks, Venom takes control of my head and nods aggressively. I hold onto my head tightly "Yes Venom is very excited for that" I say while Steve just laughs

We enter the little coffee shop and Steve orders for us clearly already knowing what we both like "sorry force of habit, the waitress will bring our order soon" Steve says "considering that I don't remember what I usually had, that was very helpful thank you" I say resting my hand over his "about what happened last night" Steve begins "I don't think we should" we say in unison before laughing "so we really did know each other well" I say with a smile "let me guess, you are worried about Bucky?" I ask and he nods "if he finds out he'll go crazy, he hated that we were friends" Steve says "he needs to understand that I don't remember much" I say, Steve frowns "what?" I ask "you said much" Steve adds "you did" Venom says "so?" I ask "so do you remember something?" Steve asks, I look into his blue eyes

It was almost like I was frozen in place, there were flashes of the moments we spent together. I am almost sucked into a whirlpool of memories of everything that had happened in the past 10 months, every mission and every argument

My eyes widen

"Oh my god" I whisper "you remember?" Steve asks, I look at our hand together and pull away "everything?" Steve asks

"Everything" I reply