'MIA REGINA' ✓

TWENTY

Finally the most awaited chapter is here!! I fucking cried while writing this chapter.

Pearl PoV

The time you have mixed feelings for someone is difficult. But having mixed emotions being surged through your body is fucking hard. I felt my entire world spin right infront of me as my mind made sense of what Bella just said.

I cried, I begged, it to stop, I begged him to stop w-when he was—

My lips were stucked together unable to say anything. The thing I feared the most, the thing I didn't wanted to happen; was done.

"No. D-Did—he—" I felt a lump in my throat when she nodded at Liam who stood frozen like everyone. My eyes stucked to the sobbing woman infront of me. Her tears were flowing and I was the reason behind those tears.

"With every breath I wanted to—die."

My heart clenched in a way I never thought was possible. My Bella, my love she had to go through all those pain. My whole body went numb. Nothing, I felt my heart totally break. I could feel the pain in my chest. She was being used, against her will and I couldn't do anything. My love was being physically used and I did nothing. I left her, I fucking left her.

It was all my fault!

Her sobs were enough to shred my skin, I felt my knee turning weak but I held myself seeing the woman infront of eyes. I couldn't save her from that bastard. If only I had knew that she was raped I would have gave Dmitri a death he had never imagined. He was the one who let that happen. My heart was filled with emotions. Anger at Dmitri for what he had done, betrayal because he was my friend once, despise at me because I couldn't help my Bella, and above all, guilt, because I failed to protect her, I failed as a husband.

With the energy left in me, I walk towards her wanting to hold her, to wipe the tears which was flowing because of me.

"Don't fucking touch me."

I stumbled a few steps back in shock of what just happened. I looked at Bella and found her staring at me in fury. Her fists were clenched around her side as she took in quick breaths; her black eyes were wide and red because of the crying.
The eyes which always had love and warmth for me, now held nothing but hatred.

"Where were you?" She screamed pulling my shirt. I was taken aback but didn't move.
"I waited for you—every single second, I waited for you but you never came." I felt my soul crushed painfully when she looked at me with defeat. I fucking want to punch myself until I bleed to death but even though I'd be death I won't be able to erase the pain she suffered. There won't be a word that I would say which will make everything normal. I wanted to touch her, hold her, I wanted to comfort her.

"I-I am..sorry, love—

I tripped on my steps when she pushed me but I didn't fall.

"Don't fucking call me that. You have lost all the right to call me Love when you left me, knowing all well what Dmitri could do, but you still left me." Each and every word she spoke was a stab in my heart. I didn't stopped her when she hit me,

"Why? You promised you would protect me, why didn't you? Tell me!" Her hands clutched my shirt tightly as she cried on my chest. And that was the first time I felt powerless. I had never felt so weak, so useless before. I was the Don of Italian Mafia, fucking king of all the mafias yet I couldn't do anything to comfort her, to ease the pain. Seeing the woman I love cry in arms, it broke my heart.

She's right. I promised to protect her, I promised I would not let anyone touch her let alone hurt her but what I did.

I let that bastard hurt her, I let that monster use her. My innocent Bella, I let that happen to her, I let that all happen because I was fucking bastard who left her.