His Doubtful Promises

Chapter 14

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He nodded as he gave me a small smile, we both walked towards their balcony, there he promised we'd talk privately about my concerns, not knowing it's about him. I am in search of answers to the questions that lingered in my thoughts, there they lived to haunt me hourly.

I couldn't contain my nervousness, I feel uneasy about confronting him and it caused my hands to tremble. While the both of us headed up their balcony, the wind was somehow harsh on me and I felt cold. It made me tremble even more. I held my fists tightly.

When we got there, the entire view of the village was visible. It looks very beautiful and as I stare at it, the strong and cold winds crippled through my hair, the breeze touching my bare face as I closed my eyes, inhaling and feeling the sensation the place has given me.

"Care to tell me?" He says so I opened my eyes and looked at him, when our eyes met, I feel my heart slowly crumbling into pieces. I never expected that my feelings would go this deep, at first I thought this was going to be one of those connections that just fades away as time goes on but this... suddenly became more serious. "Truth about what, Gaia?"

"Cyean..." Only my brother's name came out of my mouth. I noticed how he averted his gaze and stared out on the open, he looks confused and has no clue about what I'm trying to tell him. "What did you do that could have possibly made my Mom despise you and your family so much? What did you do to Cyean?"

"I don't know..." He says while looking at me, his eyes almost teary and he couldn't even talk to me straight. I feel a loud bang in my chest, everything became more complicated than how they already were. "I know nothing about that... Your mother despises me... and my family?"

I closed my eyes and slowly, I sat on the floor. I was panting and I couldn't really tell what I truly feel inside, he just made me feel more confused. It's as if... he hid nothing from me because he knows nothing too... that he is unaware of what's going on. The pieces became more hard to figure out.

He bent down on my level so we could see each other's faces clearly, I could see how the smile on his face faded after hearing my words, I also felt the pain on my chest. I looked down and started to breathe heavily. I should have never went here in the first place, too much emotion did no good.

Maybe I'm mistaken, and that nothing is complicated, it was just me making the situation uneasy and I lost all of the courage to face him again and I couldn't even let a word out of my mouth. I just want to go home, I want this night to end.

But then I remembered, if this night would end without me facing the current blur, it won't just fade away tomorrow... I would have to face it the next day and if I continue to escape from it, I'd have to carry it for a lifetime and I will regret not telling him.

"Nycho doesn't deserve to be despised by your mom... if anyone deserves to be despised, it's me... for being selfish." All of a sudden, Lyi approached the two of us. I thought she went back to Manila? "I'm sorry for not telling you this sooner Nyc, I was scared..."

Nycho and I looked at each other and we both stood up so we could listen to Lyi. She sighed and gave us a weak smile, she looked afraid but also, she was eager to tell us the truth. She looked at us and it looks like she's gathering the strength to tell us.

"I overheard your conversation, I know I can't stop myself from telling you the truth because it will help me... telling you the truth will free me from the guilt. Sorry if it has to come from me..." She starts off. "I had to hide this for years because I know I'll cause you pain..." She looks at Nycho.