Broken [Aizawa x reader]

Chapter 2 - Reopening scars that were never closed

Before going to college I made a quick stop in my apartment to grab my book bag with all my school supplies and necessities. The walk from Shota's apartment to mine was fairly near, which gave me 15 minutes to spare before my next class.

I called a cab to get faster to campus and sent a text to Mina and Jiro letting them know I was on my way there.

Luckily I was on time to my last class before lunch, literature with professor Yamada, he's one of my favorite professors. He's a really nice guy and his classes are always so fun, though none of my friends were in this class so it was only me.

It was finally lunch time and I was on my way to one of the cafes on campus Mina, Jiro and I agreed on meeting at. I arrived there before them and ordered (favorite drink) with a sandwich, enough to get me through my next three classes.

I took a seat on an empty table and took out my phone, scrolling absentmindedly while waiting for my friends to arrive. I also saved Shota's number on my phone, not sure when I was going to text him or if I'm going to text him at all but you never know.

"Hey girly, how you doin'? What's the tea? I've been dying to know." The bubbly voice of Mina made me tear my gaze away from my phone and place it on the table. Jiro was walking behind the pink haired girl with her earbuds on, like usual. They sat in front of me, also waiting for their orders.

"Remember when I told you I was gonna go to the bar and find a hot guy to hookup with?" Both of my friends nodded, Mina more eagerly and Jiro just gave an understanding nod, prompting me to continue. "Well, I found this really hot guy, he looked to be in his mid-thirties. He took me to his apartment and that was the best sex I've ever had in my life, I even squirted." I said the last sentence in a whisper, loud enough that only they could hear it.

Mina gasped loudly, bringing the attention from people on the tables beside us to our table. Jiro quickly apologized to the ones disturbed and scowled Mina for being too loud, I just giggled lightly at their surprised expression to what I told them.

"You did what now?!" Mina whispered shouted at me and Jiro widened her eyes, I just nodded with a smug smile on my face. Mina's expression changed to a proud look. "Girl, you're finally getting some good dick. I'm proud," She said to me and Jiro nodded along.

Mina and Jiro are the only ones who know about my ex and my shitty childhood, and they're been with me through it all, supporting me and helping me in every way they could. I met Jiro in high school, in one of my darkest times and we've been best friends since then. We met Mina in college and we just clicked together. I'm so grateful to have them in my life.

A waitress approached us and placed our food on the table, I began talking again after she left. "He also gave me his number but I don't want to text him right now, don't want to seem desperate or anything," I started munching on my sandwich while waiting for their opinion.

"Yeah, that's fine. Plus, you don't know him, I think it would be dangerous to see him again." Jiro said, sipping from her strawberry smoothie. She's the most responsible of our group, always taking care of Mina and me.

"I say fuck it. If he has good dick, call him and meet up again." And then there's Mina, she's the extroverted party animal that's always dragging me and Jiro out of our apartment to have some fun and loosen up, though she can be serious when needed to.

Jiro glared at Mina's way and I just chuckled at the drastic difference in their way of thinking. I sighed not knowing what to do about Shota and decided to worry about it later and finish my coffee before lunch was over. I already had plenty to worry about with missing classes on my first day of school.

"Sooo, Kirishima is throwing a party at his house this Friday for being the first week back to school in our last year and shit, we should totally go. There's gonna be a lot of cute guys." Mina broke the silence, she was also kind of popular so she always knew where the parties were thrown at. I glanced at Jiro to see what she thought about it, I really didn't mind going, if there was free alcohol and weed count me in.

"I don't know, Mina. Is our first week and things are gonna get hard with new subjects and upcoming exams-" Jiro started but was quickly cut off by Mina.

"Please, it's gonna be fun. Y/n, there's gonna be alcohol c'mon," Mina said, now looking at me. I knew Kirishima and his group of friends, they were nice guys and always had fun parties.

"It doesn't sound like a bad idea," I said, throwing away my trash and gathering my things to leave the cafe. It was nearing the end of lunch and my next class was kind of far from where I was now. The girls followed suit and stood up with me, walking out of the cafe.

Mina now looked at Jiro expectantly, if the three of us didn't go together, it wasn't the same, so it was always all of us or none of us. This type of thing is what brings our friendship together, I would trust them with my life without hesitation.

"Well, if y/n is going I guess it wouldn't be so bad-" Jiro was once again cut off by Mina's screams of excitement. Her smile brought one of our own to Jiro and me while we kept walking to our respective classes.

After some classes with professor Kayama and professor Kan, I was on my way back to my apartment. Mina and Jiro still had a few classes to take so they would meet me there for dinner.

I was halfway home when a familiar worn out black car pulled beside me, I already knew who it was so I just ignored him and continued walking like the car wasn't there. I even put on my earbuds and turned all the volume up, maybe like that he would get the hint and leave me alone.

"Y/n- hey y/n wait up!" I faintly heard over the loud music, but I didn't stop. I felt a hand wrap around my upper arm and tugged me back making me stop walking. I finally turned around and just as I thought, I was met face to face with my ex, Dabi.

"What do you want, Dabi? Wasn't I clear when I told you I was done with you?" I harshly said, not wanting to see his face anymore. I'm doing so much better without him. It's true I still think about him at times but finally getting over my addiction with the help of my best friends and medication.

"You know you're gonna come back to me sooner or later, princess. We've been through this before so let's just cut the crap and get in the car," He sighed and dropped his hand, away from my arm. His blue eyes stared into my e/c ones, those eyes I once found comfort in, those eyes I once believed were the only ones that truly cared about me. A wave of sadness started rising up, almost bringing tears to the corner of my eyes but I pushed them away. If I let myself be vulnerable in front of Dabi he's going to think he won and I don't want that.

"T-that's not gonna happen this time, I'm done with you. Don't talk to me or message me." My voice came out a little more shaky than intended, I tried to turn around and leave but Dabi's hands came up and grabbed my shoulders keeping me in place.

"We both know you're gonna relapse eventually. You know you need me, just come with me, princess, I just got a new block of your favorite," His tone changed to a softer one, the one he uses when he compliments me or comforts me when I'm crying. He's also one of the few people who knows about my past, because I've known him since high school.

He took one of his hands and put it in his jacket pocket searching for something. He took it out alongside a small plastic bag filled with a white powder. I looked at the bag and then back at him, deep down I knew he was right. He's the only source of affection I've known, he's the only one that's been able to fill that void I've had since I was a child.

And a part of me missed that comfort and 'love' he gave me, he's the only one who understands me due to our similar childhoods. He always protected me and made me feel complete even with the need of drugs. So maybe I did need him and it was dumb of me to break up with him.

"C'mon love, it's free if you come with me. Let me take care of you," Dabi said while caressing my cheek, wiping a single tear that fell down without me even realizing. He placed a long, warm kiss on my forehead. I hung my head low, not saying a word and blindly followed him to his car. "Good girl."

In the end, he was the only source of love I've ever had, so I was bound to go back to him at some point.