Broken [Aizawa x reader]

Chapter 18 - Open book

CW: drug abuse/consumption

Thursday 7:45 a.m:

I was locked inside the bathroom finishing getting ready, I made sure to hide the heart necklace well after inhaling a scoop or two just to get me through the school day. I hated myself for falling into old bad habits but I hated the feeling of anxiety more and this was the only solution. I put on my sunglasses to cover my blown pupils and redness and avoid unwanted questions, of course.

I exited the bathroom and went to the kitchen to grab my coffee. Though I don't think I would need the caffeine because the drug was already waking me up. As expected, I received weird glances from both my friends, I internally rolled my eyes and poured some coffee in a 'to go' thermos to drink it on my way to campus.

"Why the sunglasses, Y/n? The sun is barely out and it's so not fashionable," Mina said, of course she was the first to comment on it since I already knew the sunglasses didn't go with my outfit but a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do.

"I have a strong headache and my eyes are sensitive." I simply said not waiting for their response, while exiting the kitchen and going for the exit door Jiro grabbed my wrist to get my attention.

"Y/n, you know you can tell me anything, right?" Jiro told me looking straight into my sunglasses-covered eyes. At that moment I thought she knew what I was doing, but that was impossible, how could she? So I just nodded my head and turned around to exit the apartment without another word.

When I closed the door close Jiro stood there in front of it with a troubled expression, she felt like I was slipping out of her grasp ever since she caught me sneaking out at late hours of the night. She had a hunch that something wasn't right and that she should be worried about me, but how could she when I wasn't talking to her? Jiro sighed and went back inside the kitchen with Mina. If something's wrong she would tell me right? She thought while walking to her room and closing the door.

8:00 a.m:

I arrived at the familiar lecture hall receiving the occasional weird glare from passersby thanks to the sunglasses, and honestly I can't blame them. I would be weird out if I saw a person inside school with sunglasses at eight in the morning.

I reached my usual spot beside Shinso and the awaited question came, "Why are you wearing sunglasses?" He asked, looking at me with a funny face, I chuckled lightly and leaned back in my seat.

"I have a really strong migraine and my eyes are sensitive." I said matter of fact, I practiced this excuse last night. I remembered what I wanted to ask Shinso and blurted it out before I forgot. "Hey, Shinso. Can you give me the number of your dealer? Mine got busted." I amused myself with how easily it was becoming lying to my friends, I guess hanging out with Dabi's shitty personality was rubbing off on me.

"Uh... yeah. His name's Chisaki Kai, here give me your phone." He said and I gladly handed him my phone. I was looking for a new dealer since I refused to go back to Dabi. It may not be free anymore but if it saves me from the manipulation and forced kisses then so be it.

He handed me back my phone and I thanked him before the door was busted open by a certain hot teacher announcing today's class. I turned towards the front of the class and used my artificial energy to pay attention and take some notes. Shinso noticed my slight change in mood and the energetic self but brushed it off on the caffeine from my thermos, though the coffee inside was left untouched.

After class ended Shota reminded me of our date tomorrow evening and I also texted Chisaki about meeting up. I told him I was going to this club on Saturday and we agreed on seeing each other there. With everything sorted out, I made my way to the coffee shop I work at, of course, not before I inhaled another scoop from my source of energy.