The Truth Untold

Kaya Ko Na

"Ma,"

"...."

"Ma--"

"Bakit ba?!"

"Anong ulam?"

"Magtingin-tingin ka naman, mata ang gamitin!"

I nodded and smiled at her.

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"Pa.."

"Oh?!"

"M-may ten pesos ka ba?"

"Bakit? Puro na lang kayo hingi, kumuha ka sa wallet!"

I smiled.

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"Hoy, nakahiga ka na naman! Tamad ka talaga!"

Hindi ako kumibo.

"Hoy, tamad. Maghugas ka ng pinggan!"

I stood up and do whatever what he wants.

But because of my clumsiness, I dropped the plate.

"Tamad ka talaga, pati 'yan pagdadabugan mo?! Lumayas ka na nga d'yan, ako na!"

I bit my lower lip and leave. I didn't mean to do that.

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"Mag-educ ka, hindi natin kaya ang nursing."

No words came out to my mouth.

"Ma, mag-eengineering ako." my kuya said.

"Anong engineering? Mechanical? May alam ka naman na 'don, kausapin mo Kuya mo."

My brother nodded.

"Ma.."

"Hindi natin kaya ang nursing, masyadong mahal." may pinalidad sa boses niya. I can feel the lump in my throat.

"H'wag mo akong iyakan, sinabing hindi kaya, eh!"

I stood up and left them in the dining.

"Tita, bakit?" my niece asked me. Mas nagtubig ang mata ko.

Buti pa 'yung bata, may pakialam sa'kin.

I shake my head and enter my room.

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"Educ kinuha mo?"

I nodded and smiled.

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"Bakit ba hindi kita maintindihan?!" bulong ko sa isang major subject ko.

"Magwalis ka nga," utos ni mama.

"May ginagawa pa ako!" unconsciously, I shouted.

"Bastos ka, ah!"

A lone tear fell from my eye.

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"Kuya.."

"Bakit?"

"P-patulong sa isang subject ko.."

"Mamaya ko na gagawin."

I nodded.

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"K-kuya.."

"Oh?"

"Kumusta?"

"Ayos lang. Kayo ba? Magpakabait ka d'yan."

I nodded and smiled again.

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"Pwede patulong?" an acquaintance asked.

"Saan?"

"Dito, pakopya na lang."