5SOS Preferences

the only reason (michael)

Nobody knows you're in a relationship with Michael. It is both your desicion to keep it from everyone--even the guys. He doesn't want you to get hurt by some fans or make your life miserable because of the media. You also don't want his career to mess up when people find out. They're currently on tour and you always tail around with them. Sometimes the boys are giving you suspicious looks wondering why are you always with them.
After the concert they rest backstage before prepping up for going at the hotel. "Can I ask you a question?" Luke asked you.
"Uh,yeah." Surprised by his sudden approach to you, you sat straight.
"Why are you always with us, you know...I mean, yep we're friends but-" You cut him up. You know what he's trying to ask but can't direct his point.
"Um, I just want to hang out with you guys." You can't think of any excuse. You eyed Michael signalling him you don't know what to do.
"Is that really the reason? Or you want to see Michael?" Calum added, he's not angry but he's teasing you.
"What do you mean?" You fired back.
"Don't hide it anymore y/n, we notice your closeness with Michael, you like him don't you?" Ashton giggled.
You feel like you're on the hot seat being triggered by their questions. You're blushing and hoping Michael would help you out but it seems like he's blushing too.
"I think I shall go and get some drinks for all of us." Michael stood up and went outside with Calum.
When the doors closed, Luke and Ashton eagerly ran beside you like you're telling them some secrets.
"You can tell us if there's something GOING ON between you two. It's not like we're strangers y/n. We're childhood friends." Luke stated with sparks in his eyes.
"Come on, y/n. You can trust us." Ashton rest his arms around the back of your shoulders. They're not stopping blabbering at you that it come to the point you want to tell them. It's a burden anyway for hiding it for months.
"Okay okay, I will. Stop shouting at me." You screamed.
They anticipated for your next words and you're nervous spilling it out.
"Me and Michael are dating secretly for five months." You finally confessed.
Ashton is screaming wildly while Luke is jumping out of happiness.
"I knew it! I knew it! My senses are never wrong! whoa!!" Luke shouted.
Out of the sudden, Michael burst out of the door with Calum holding some drinks.
"What's going on?" Michael asked confuse by the commotion.
"Michael!! We knew it. No more hiding about you and y/n."
You gaze at him apologetically. You're waiting for his response but he stood there frozen.
"That's not true. We're just friends. Get over your fantasies, y/n." He said.

Anger took over your mind. He just denied you on his friends. You raised an eyebrow pretending to be strong. The rest of the guys remain silent, they didn't try to talk knowing it's not the right time.

"Really Clifford?" You stated at him angrily--tears filling your eyes.
He's not responding but just stare at the ground.

"Screw you." You whispered at his ear. You left them and run away from them. You wiped your tears as you run. You don't care about the way people look at you as you run.

When you reach the hotel room where you currently stay for awhile, that's when Michael finally call you.

"Still have the guts to call me huh?" You answered his call.
"Y/n, listen to me..you don't understand what's going on earlier."
"Wow,I absolutely understand what happened Michael, you ditched me."
"Y/n,there's something you need to know--"
"You also need to know something, We're over." You ended the call.
You threw the phone across the wall. It's getting harder for you to breathe. And that night, thoughts of him didn't let you sleep. He feels like shit after that but he has a reason for doing that.

Tomorrow morning, you woke up from a loud knock on the door. It's about time for housekeeping. Without fixing yourself you opened it. It's not the housekeeper, it is Calum. Your eyes are still red because of last night.

"You okay? I brought some food." He greeted you.
"I think so, get inside."
He sat at the sofa and arranged the foods he brought.
"What's with the sudden visit?" You asked.
"Michael didn't ask me to go here but I think you should know what's going on last night."
"I'm not gonna listen." You rolled your eyes.
"Look, he told us everything." He want you to listen desperately.
"Go on."
"There was a sound recorder hidden backstage set by the media or paparazzi, I'm not sure. I was the only one who know it. When Michael asked me to get some drinks, I told him. And when we get back, he figured out already that you confessed. Afraid of being known by the media he denied you."

You can't utter a word. It feels like guilt strikes you hard.

"I need to talk to him."
"If you want to make things work," he handed you a ticket "here, take this and go to our show later."

The lights on the stage flickers and you can hear them playing their instruments. Only their silhouette is visible.Fans starts screaming as they get pumped up in seeing the guys. Your eyes are fixed at the center --looking for Michael. After a minute of total loudness, Luke starts to talk and entertain the fans. You saw Michael and it is evident in his swollen eyes that he cried last night. He covered it up with thick eyeliner.
His scanning the crowd like he's looking for something. You feel bad actually for what happened but you're hoping he will understand.
You're trying to catch his eyes but he can't find you in the crowd.
"Where is she?" Michael whispered softly on Calum. Calum nudged Michael and point your direction using his lips. Michael turned around and smiled when he saw you. You gave back the smile.
"Hey everyone!! tonight, the first song we'll play for you is a song I just wrote last night. This is for you." Michael winked at you after announcing.
He closed his eyes as the lyrics came out of his mouth. You listen wholeheartedly and take every words to heart. Everyone around you yelled feeling so happy as Michael serenade everyone.

After show, your phone vibrates. You just received a message from Michael.
"Meet me up at the van."

You went at the parking lot, nobody's insight except that the van is open with Michael inside.

"Hi." You greeted him.
"You're not mad anymore?"
"You should be the one who is mad." You avoid his gaze.
"No, it's not your fault." He cupped your chin.
"I'm sorry I didn't listen. I let my emotions control me instead of trying to understand you." You starts to sob.
He hugged you and let you bury your head to his chest.
"If you really feel that bad, I want you to know I commanded Calum to go to you and give you the ticket. I know you're not gonna listen after what I did." He hugged you tighter and you wrapped your arms around him to embrace him.
"I'm sorry I doubted you." You apologized.
"Stop talking y/n, we'll be okay. Just promise me you'll not give up on us."
"I won't."