•Chapter 19•

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'Then don't be so close to y/n until those feelings go away, it's for the best,'

Those words kept going through the boy's head as he walked behind the group thinking of what had just happened.

'Is that really what I want though? Do I want the feelings to go away? Yea I may not know what I'm feeling but still, I don't know if I want them to go away,'

He grunted and put his hands into fists. 'I don't want to stay away from her, I like being around her,'

Continuing to walk behind the others another thought or memory came to mind.

Flashback moment
"EWW DISGUSTING WHAT WAS THAT,"

"It was a kiss boar head what else would it be,"

"Why would anyone kiss anyone else that's gross,"

"That's what people who like each other do,"

He stopped in his tracks after that memory ended. 'Like each other? Is it with that regular relationship and relationship relationship thing??'

The poor boy was confused he still didn't get the difference between a regular relationship and a relationship relationship thing worked. So clueless. So close yet so so far.

Standing there for a moment he tried remembering what else happened to see if this would help him know what he is feeling and maybe how to solve it.

"The difference is that a regular relationship concept of friends known as friendships a relationship concept of two people who like each other,"

"What does it mean when two people like each other?? Don't they like each other as friends that's why they became friends in the first place?!"

"Yes, yes they like each other as friends in a regular relationship now in a relationship they are more than friends,"

"What do you mean more than friends?"

"They basically want to be by each other's sides but not as friends but as lovers inosuke,"

His breath got caught in his throat. 'Lovers?'

'So the regular relationship they are just friends which is what me and her are right now I suppose,'

'And in a relationship relationship, they are more than friends which I suppose they like each other but more than friends?'

The dots are connecting slowly but we are getting somewhere now.

'I like being around her I suppose which is why she's my friend? But I feel like I want to be by her side,'

He paused long and hard thinking of his next choice of words.

'But not like her friend but I want to be with her as her lover,'

When he finished thinking that he let out a breath of relief he didn't know he was holding in, his heart started beating faster and his face felt hot luckily his mask was on and no one could see him, he looked up to where the group was at scanning the area to look for you.

Eventually, he found you and he took a breath in and let it out. There it was, that feeling in his stomach and his hands sweating when you looked over at him. Smiling he smiled beneath his mask.

The group was far away so you were wondering why he stopped. You signaled him to come to you guys.

He felt happy? That he found out what he was feeling but was angry at the same time.

Why didn't tanjiro tell him what he felt? Isn't he supposed to know what he feels? He has more knowledge about what he is feeling so it wouldn't have been difficult for him to know what he was feeling. Why didn't he tell him?

Looking over at tanjiro, he was smiling at inosuke while having his arm around your shoulder.

Making his hands into a fist again. Why was he out of a sudden touching you? Why was he touching his lover like that?

Just discovering what he felt doesn't mean anything. If he wants to be by your side he will. No matter what. But first, the goal is to get you to like him back. How exactly? Was unclear to him but he was going to do it. After all, he is the great inosuke hasibira he can make anything possible if he tries.

A/n: hey guys! This is a short chapter and I apologize for that I just want to say thank you for 26k on this story I really appreciate all the comments and the votes it means a lot!! I love the interactions with this book and that you guys are enjoying it when I completely finish this book I will go back to edit it cause I've read a couple of chapters and the grammar is not it. I may say the same for this chapter and future chapters. Same for the character's personality and attitude 😭😭And thank you for the patience you guys have with me it's very much appreciated.

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